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Thursday, January 28, 2010


For Christmas my lovely husband who knows I am not that trendy with clothes and who wants me to look and feel cute bought me 2 sweater dresses with leggings and black tall boots. Yes, he is a manly man coach who has a really good sense of fashion and can pick out my clothes better than I can. Go figure.

Anyway, I am wearing one of them today so I thought I would share so you can see my 138.4 pound body. WOO HOO!!!

And of course the bootie shot!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I weigh less than my MOM!!!

So last night I was having dinner with my parents and for some reason Chloe said "Mom, tell them how much you weigh." (still not sure why she brought this up, maybe b/c when I got into the 130's I was doing the happy dance around the house exclaiming, 130's, 130's, 130's). That girl doesn't forget anything.

Anyway so I said "I weigh 139.6!!! My Mom said with a smile "Dawn, you weigh less than me". I almost did the happy dance around the restaurant but I refrained.

You would only know what a big accomplishment this is if you knew my Mom and her petite body. She has never struggled with her weight only b/c she has typically eaten healthy and home grown foods and she doesn't eat big portions, she never has and she is very active working out side and such.

My Mom is the Mom who has always had an average weight of 125 (she is 5'4") and when she was pregnant with me, 9 months pregnant with me I might add, she weighed 127. YES, I just said when she was NINE MONTHS PREGNANT she weighed 127 pounds. She was one of those that was so tiny and had the basketball in the front. Now I only weighed 5 pounds 8 oz. so I was tiny but still. When she left the hospital after having me she weighed a measely 107 pounds. Yes, 107 people!

So anyway, my Mom actually now weighs 143. The most she has ever weighed. 6 years ago she retired and since then she has put on about 20 pounds. One reason I think is b/c she isn't on a regular schedule and she is eating a little more than before by snacking and she is having issues with her thyroid which I think is affecting her weight. She is still very active though gardening and chasing my kids around. I have been giving her food recommendations and she is making some changes plus she just started a work out thing where she lifts weights 2 times a week.

My point is that my Mom is bigger than she has been although she is still rather small, BUT I AM SMALLER!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I like to give her a hard time about it now and she takes it very well. She is VERY PROUD OF ME since I have struggled with it in the past. There is nothing more than she wants for her daughter to be smaller than her.

She calls me "Skinny butt".... AND I LOVE IT!!!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Too skinny...BRING IT ON!

I have recently been getting a few comments from friends and loved ones that say "Dawn, you are looking good, I hope you don't get too skinny." Now, let me say that the people that have actually said this to my face are very supportive of my endeavor and are also encouraging and I realize that they are saying this out of concern only.

I decided this would be a great blog topic to share my thoughts on this comment.

First, "too skinny" is such a personal opinion in my eyes. What one person views as too skinny might possibly be fit and trim to another person. In my eyes their are two people in my life that I personally know (and I know a lot of people) that I view as too skinny and they actually both have eating disorders. The two of them have little to no muscle mass and almost look like skin on bones. That is a personal issue to them and I am sure they fight it themselves or most likely they have NO CLUE that they look that way to others b/c again to them they look fine. So truly the only person that can deem if a person is too skinny is themselves. Since we all know we can't please everyone you have to go with YOU and how you view yourself and that is the bottom line. Plus, the people that I might view as trim and fit with a small body fat percentage and a good deal of lean muscle mass might be the people that you think are too skinny and I think have the perfect body. Again, a personal opinion here.

Secondly, I have worked too hard to get to where I am now and I finally have this healthy lifestyle down that I can assure you that I will NOT get what I view as too skinny and an un healthy body weight. I WILL NOT DO IT!! My health is too important to me and I have made too many strides to overcome some eating issues to throw my health out the door and become what I deem is too skinny and un healthy.

Thirdly, I think (again this is my own opinion) that it is hard for people that have known me for my lifetime or for several years to see me smaller/thinner. They have seen me either overweight for too many years of my life or they have seen me at an average weight for several years that looks decent on me and they think anything smaller is just too skinny when in fact that is just their image they have of how they think I should look in their head.

Finally, For once in my life (my adult life at least) I don't give a crap if people view me as too skinny. In fact, I think I deserve it. I lived 12 years of my life from age 18 - 30 what I consider really overweight for my height (over 185 pounds and up into the low 200's for about 5 years of that) and I want the satisfaction of being too skinny in some people's eyes. I am finally (have been for the last 4 years) making a lifestyle change so that I feel better and hopefully live longer and look better to boot and dang it if you think I am getting too skinny in this venture to the competition stage and you feel the need to tell me about it then you can expect a BIG SMILE AND A "THANK YOU, I WORK VERY HARD" response from me.

I forgot to add that during this process I will most likely get down to a weight of around 115 (this number is not set in stone and my trainer does not go by scale weight but by the look I have and everyone's body is different based on the amount of muscle that they have) but 115 is a snapshot in time. I will not stay at that weight for long. After the competition I will do my best to settle in at a weight that I feel the most comfortable at possibly around 130 or so just to throw out a number. 115 is for the competition and a specfic goal and not a liveable maintenance weight for me.


Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Pictures - just a few

I plan on sharing my "bare all" pics with you soon of me in a bikini bottom and sports bra so that you can see the difference in the 10 pounds but until I post those these will have to do.

Here I am in a small size 8 pant and a shirt that I got for Christmas.

Here is what I often eat for lunch. Ground turkey burger, small portion of turkey tenderloin dipped in my condiment of choice...mustard, with 1 whole green pepper and my gallon water jug that I drink each day and to keep me sane, my diet dr. pepper. YUM!! It actually is pretty tasty although it looks a lot boring.

Warning: If you are an animal rights activist then you might not like the next two pics so just save yourself the hurt and quit looking NOW!!

Completely off the eating - weight loss subject is my husbands deer that we just got back from the taxidermy. This is his very first ever deer to have mounted. He thought it was mounting material and I agree. It actually looks pretty nice. This is in our bedroom. I won't let him hang it in the living room but I can live with it in the bedroom. He can go to bed at night thinking of it and wake up in the morning thinking of it. It is perfect. HA

Then he duck/goose hunts also so this is a goose that he shot Saturday morning. It is as big as Lizzie. She wanted to touch it and such but Chloe, she was another story, we had to make her grab its head.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

HELLO 130's!!!!!!

Quick Saturday morning check in to let you know I made it to the 130's this week. Just barely, but I made it. 139.8!!!!!!!!!! WOWZA!!!! I can't believe it. Gonna keep going down from there. I am melting this fat and loving every minute of it! WOOT!

Friday, January 15, 2010

If I knew

I have been meaning to post this for a while and I finally got it typed up. The preacher read this poem at my Grandmothers funeral in late November and I just loved it. Basically it just reminds us that life is short and we need to take advantage of each day we have with those that we love.


If I knew it would be the last time that I would see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time I would see you walk out the door I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for another.

If I knew it would be the last time that I would hear your voice lifted up in praise I would videotape each action and word so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time I could spare an extra minute to stop and say “I Love You” instead of assuming that you would know I do.

If I knew, it would be the last time I would be there to share your day. Well I am sure you’ll have so many more so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there is always tomorrow to make up for an oversight and we always get a second chance to make everything just right.

There will always be another day to say “I Love You” and certainly there is another chance to say “Is there anything I can do?”

But just in case I might be wrong and today is all I get I would like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget…

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone young or old alike and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you are waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes you will surely regret the day.

That you didn’t take the extra time for a smile, a hug or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone what turned out to be their one last wish. So hold your loved ones close today and whisper in their ear. Tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them dear.

Take time to say “I am sorry,” “Please,” “Forgive Me,” “Thank You,” or “It is o.k.” and if tomorrow never comes you will have no regrets about today.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Already HUMP DAY!

Wow, how the weeks are flying by. I am counting them down too. I am 21 1/2 weeks out from the competition. For me when I put it in weeks it doesn't seem like very long. When I say 6 months it really seems like an eternity. HA So we will go with the weeks count down.

I am doing well this week so far, well half well I should say. Food is 100% on, strength training is perfect. I have done 4 out of the 5 workouts that I need to do and it is only Wednesday. Cardio, not so good. I had planned to do cardio in the morning Monday through Friday. Well, I was lazy or tired (a little of both) and I didn't get up Tuesday or Wednesday to get it done. So now it is moved to the weekend. I have got to get in all of these workouts or I might not make it to the stage and that just isn't an option. It is only 45 minutes of time on Saturday or Sunday, surely to goodness I can do that. We are not talking 2-3 hours here. I can do it at night if I want too but I have plans tonight and then tomorrow night I will do bicep/tricep workout so I don't have time for both so the weekend it is.

We are starting to make our travel arragement plans for the Chattanooga show. It is VERY EXCITING! Still can't believe I am going to do this.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Exercise Intensity and that MAGIC number

First, let me say that I finally made it to my MAGIC number on the scale that I have been working towards for a while now and I saw it this morning. Drum roll please.......

YES!!! 140.6!! OH YEA!!!! Knocking on those 130's door though. I am very close. Can't imagine how good that is going to feel. I was just thrilled to get to something that had a "1", a "4" and a "0" in it and I MADE IT! WOOT!

Next, I had a comment yesterday on my blog asking if I ran on the treadmill (TM) when I did my morning cardio. The answer is no. As you all know if you have followed me for any length of time I LOVE to run. I have completed 3 half marathons and a full marathon so I consider myself a runner and I love it very much. With that being said, during my marathon training I started having a knee issue and I learned that it is from my knee cap not tracking right so it causes discomfort from time to time. One way to help that issue is to build ALL of the muscles in your legs really well so that the muscles help the knee cap track in the correct manner. Things to avoid are running, lunges and squats. My leg workout does not include lunges and squats but other good exercises that strengthen my leg muscles and I choose not to run so that hopefully in the future with the good leg muscles it will enable me to run in another half or full marathon.

So that is the main reason I don't run but also another reason is this and I am not an expert by any means but I am learning as I go about this competition training:

You don't want to go high intensity in the beginning. I do cardio 5 days a week at a light to moderate intensity and I still burn fat. If you go high intensity for 7 days a week or even 5 in the beginning you will obviously burn fat too but you have no where to go or you can't build up to anything more if you need it towards the end to burn that last little bit of stubborn fat. Does that make sense?

So now it is just low to moderate intensity. I walk pretty fast though for my on the short side legs and I also up the incline to make it harder. You would be surprised at how hard you can work/breathe when you increase the incline and the speed. It can be tougher than jogging sometimes in my opinion. I constantly vary my speed and the incline to make it not so boring and more challenging, but all the while I am still walking.

Later if I do need/want to run then Iwill do it and see how things go. Hopefully, I will have built my leg muscles up by then and that will make a big difference. Also, if I do run it will be short sprints then slow jogging then fast walking and then a sprint type interval work out so I am not jogging at a steady state for an extended period of time.

I hope the next time I post I can say HELLO TO THE 130's!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Exercise schedule

I am working hard towards my plan this week as I will be for 22 1/2 more weeks. Here is a look at my exercise schedule.

My exercise routine for now looks like this:
*Wake at 5AM - this has been going well. I set the alarm at 5 on the dot and I put it across the room and I get up and turn it off and head to the bathroom where my clothes are ready to put on.
*Treadmill for 45 minutes from 5:15 - 6:00AM - I recently moved the TM to the play room so it is a nice warm room and I LOVE it. No more cold garage for the TM. I can turn on the light so that helps me wake up and I don't have to worry about being too cold and uncomfortable.
*At some point in the evening either right after dinner while girls play in their play room or after they go to bed I do a strength workout 5 days a week broken up into bi's/tri's, chest, shoulders, back and legs. I actually do legs and back at the gym either at lunch or 2 of the mornings or right after work. Just whenever I can get it in.
*Then now that I have the exercise bike I do 15 more minutes of cardio after my strength workout in the evening. I moved the bike to the living room so I can chat and watch TV with J. That makes the 15 minutes go by much faster.

So for now I exercise 5 days a week, about 1 1/2 hours a day total. It actually isn't too bad since I break it up. It doesn't seem like 1 1/2 hours of exercise. I feel so good at night when I go to bed knowing what I accomplished that day.

At some point I do believe I will go to 6 days and then 7 days of cardio but I am not certain. I just do what my trainer tells me to do. I will just cross that bridge when I get to it though...remember it is just DAY TO DAY!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2010 is HERE!

I cannot believe it is 2010. It seems like yesterday we were in the 1990's. Blows me away how fast times goes by. I really don't like it actually. I wish it would slow down but oh well, no control over that. Well, except for the next 23 weeks, I wish that would go by fast so that the competition would be here already, then I want it to slow WAY down. HA

I had a wonderful Christmas with my family and enjoyed my 11 days off work. We even got an extra day off yesterday, my work was closed b/c of snow. WOOT WOOT!!

Oh, we had a WHITE CHRISTMAS!! It was AWESOME!! It started snowing Christmas Eve around 8 PM at night and then by Christmas morning we had about 3-4 inches. LOVED IT!!!

I am glad to get back to my routine though and glad that December has passed and I made it through VERY SUCCESSFULLY with melting 8 pounds of fat!!! OH YEA!! I so did that in the month of DECEMBER PEOPLE!! NEVER SAY NEVER!! That was very empowering and once again I proved to myself what I am capable of when I want something bad enough.

We are less than 23 weeks out from the June 12th competition. The countdown begins b/c as I stated above times flies by and June 12th will be here before I know it. Gotta keep melting the fat consistently with a very clean diet and consistent exercise.

I am proud to report that I am down to 142. My December 1st weight was 150. I actually took a week hiatus, not off the wagon by any means but I did eat a few nibbles of things that I normally don't eat last week. I wanted a mind break for a few days and I got it and now I am FOCUSED. I will have to stay this way for 23 weeks. SHEW!! Day to day though, not thinking that far out b/c as you know it is too overwhelming to think of the amount of exercise I have to do and the food that I cannot eat. I can do it though. I AM READY!!

I am loving the changes I am seeing in my body in just 8 pounds gone and I can't wait to see what another 5 pounds gone will look like on me.

I told my husband this morning I was just glad to have lose pants so that I can wear long johns under my pants to work b/c it is darn cold here. Much colder than usual so for the next few days I will wear long johns on top and bottom so I can stay warmer. As I have lost weight I have found I get colder much eaiser. Not as much insulation I guess. Good problem to have though.