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Thursday, December 23, 2010

Test - video

This is a video from last Christmas when my husband got me my exercise bike. Just trying this out to see how it uploads. I am WAY behind.

video

YAY!! IT WORKED!!! I want to start posting a video from time to time and now I know how easy it is. Wish I would have been doing this all along. DUH!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

21 weeks and CHRISTMAS IS COMING (pictures)!!!

YAY!! It is only 2 2/1 days until Christmas. I LOVE IT!! I have always been a big fan of Christmas and now that I have young kids I love it even more. Chloe is at a great age (6) and is so into it and the best part is that she loves to get gifts of course (I mean who doesn't) but she also loves to go pick out gifts for other people. I love that!! Lizzie is into Christmas of course b/c she repeats everything Chloe says (and more)

We have a busy Christmas Eve and Christmas day. We thankfully do not have to travel b/c all of our family lives within 10-15 minutes of our house so we just hit them all on one day. It is GREAT!! Everyone is satisfied and we enjoy it too.

On another note, I have made it over the half way hump to 21 weeks pregnant. WOOT WOOT!!

Still doing pretty well. My energy levels has been a little low the past few days but hopefully that will turn around. I am not sleeping well, I wake up in the middle of the night to pee and then for the life of me I can NOT go back to sleep and I just lay there. It drives me crazy. I am so tired and I want to go back to bed immediately but I just can't. I have laid there for up to almost 2 hours and then I finally must doze off. God is trying to prepare me for the interrupted sleep when you have a new born but I would rather just sleep good now and just have it hit me after the baby is born b/c you can NEVER be prepared for it fully at all.

I will leave you with a few pictures of Chloe and Lizzie this past Sunday when they sang at the church choir concert. They looked so pretty!
Chloe is the first "S" .
Lizzie's song was about rocking baby Jesus in a cradle. It was so sweet. These are all 3-4 year olds.

This is the Mabry crew (minus one brother who was there but had to leave).
My Mom and Dad w/ the girls.



Thursday, December 16, 2010

20 weeks. HALF WAY THERE!! OH YEA!!!

Here is the baby. All was well. Of course we knew everything was good genetically from the results of the amnio but it was good to actually SEE a healthy looking baby on the screen. Not sure how well you can see these but they will have to do.

Feet:
profile pic with head/body and arm/hand up by the head.
Another profile pic. The nurse said it was waving at the girls. (They were with us)


This is the face. You can see the eye sockets and bridge of nose and mouth and chin.

So I am 20 weeks along now. I can't believe it. I am glad it is finally going by fast though b/c those first 10 weeks or so just seemed to creep.

I am still doing really well. Feeling GREAT!!! I don't sleep well but what's new. The other night I woke up at 1 in the morning to pee and COULD NOT for the life of me go back to sleep. I ended up having to go to the living room with my book and I read 4 chapters and laid back down at 2:30 and I think I might have gone to sleep about 3. So frustrating when you are so tired. Of course even when people aren't pregnant they have sleep patterns like this.

Exercise is non-existent. No excuses though, just not doing it. I just am not making myself. I will eventually though. I was doing pretty well with it for about 15 weeks then it got pushed to the side.

I can't believe it is 9 days before Christmas. This really is blowing my mind. I am SO EXCITED though. I love Christmas and so does my husband so this is always fun and you can imagine how much a 3 1/2 and 6 year old child loves it.

I do wish we would get some snow. I LOVE to watch it snow. I am not hopeful though that we will get some anytime soon.

Bye for now. Have a great weekend. We have a Christmas party to go to and a church choir concert that the girls will sing in. I also have to do the shopping for J b/c I only have him one small gift so far.

Friday, December 10, 2010

19 weeks!

WOW!! I am 19 weeks along now and approaching our 20 week ultrasound which will be next Tuesday, December 14th. YAHOO!!

Even though we aren't finding out the gender we are SO LOOKING FORWARD to seeing him/her. We are taking our girls with us to see it so that will be so much fun. They just won't know what to think about it all. I think it is crazy that there is a baby growing inside my belly, I can't imagine what a 3 1/2 and 6 year old must think about it. Just too much to comprehend I am sure.

HELLO, it is 15 days until Christmas!!!! Can you guys believe that? I do love Christmas. I always have and even more so now that I have children. This weekend J and I hope to get our Christmas shopping finished. We just have 2 family members to buy for and the girls and I think we know what we are getting them.

I have got to get some stuff for J but I have NO IDEA what to get him. He said "just get me something." Well "something, WHAT?" I don't know. I love to get people surprises but when you can't think of what to get someone and then they don't seem to know of things they want them how in the world do you buy something for them?

Back to the pregnancy...I feel VERY PREGNANT all of the sudden. It just hit me yesterday that my belly feels really big and in some clothes it looks REALLY BIG too. I am loving it though. Just embracing this pregnancy and enjoying every minute of it.

I am feeling him/her move around a lot more now. I just can't wait until J and the girls can feel it move which should hopefully be in a couple of weeks or so.

Have a great weekend ya'll!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Belly bump pics!!!!

I finally had my husband take a picture of me then I took one in the bathroom mirror also. These pics were taken on Tuesday, November 30th which was 1 day shy of me being 18 weeks.

Someone said to me the other day that "the balloon inflates much faster the 3rd time around" which made me feel a lot better by my rather large belly that I already have. I'll just take that comment and run with it.

I am feeling GREAT!! No complaints so far. Just taking it day to day and really enjoying this pregnancy.



Wednesday, November 24, 2010

17 weeks and amnio results!

Just got a call from my Dr. office and my amniocentesis results came back and they are PERFECT!! YAY!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! I had a good feeling about them but it is always nice to get that confirmation that you are praying for.

The nurse then said "do you want to know the sex?" I quickly said "no, and I better get off the phone before I change my mind." She laughed and said "ok, bye, have a nice Thanksgiving." Shew!! That is over with. I knew they would ask me and I felt confident in my ability to say NO but it is TOUGH when it is right at your fingertips a 100% without a doubt conclusion if you are having a boy or a girl. I made it though and now should be fine to make it the rest of the way. We do have the 20 week ultrasound on December 14th but now that I made it past the amnio phone call I should be fine.

The baby is the size of an onion now accord to thebump.com. It is about 5 inches long.

I HAVE BEEN FELING IT MOVE SOME!!! Now that is the coolest thing ever. It has been very slight of course but I know that is what it is. I just can't wait until my husband and the girls especially can feel it move. I can't wait to see what they think of it.

I am feeling GREAT still.

Looking forward to some time with family over the Thanksgiving break as well as a few days off work.

Oh, and I meant to share that my husband broke his left big toe on Sunday. We had to make a trip to the ER. He was helping my Mom move a large piece of furniture into her flea market booth and it just slipped out of his hands and landed on his big toe and broke it in 4 places. No surgery necessary as of now so that is a plus. He goes to the orthopedic Dr. next Tuesday to confirm that decisions though. He is hobbling around but getting around much better each day.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and as always don't forget to count your blessings!
Dawn

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

16 weeks and an amnio

According to a website that sends me weekly updates of the baby and the growth the baby is now the size of an avocado and about 4 1/2 inches long.

Last week I had a blood test for genetic birth defects and my Dr. called me on Monday and said it came back elevated with some potential markers towards deffects. I had this same issue when pregnant with Lizzie. We chose to do an amniocentesis last time and we chose to do that again this time. Although, we feel like the results this time will be the same as last time, a false positive, we want to make 100% sure so that we are the most prepared.

If you have never had an amnio they sound and look much worse than they actually are. I was nervous about the procedure 4 years ago when I had it with my 2nd pregnancy but after it was over I thought "that wasn't bad at all." Then this time around it didn't worry me at all. Of course there is a slight risk with having an amnio so it is a personal choice to have one and you have to accept the risk. Both Dr.'s that perfomed mine were SUPERB and it was so quick and easy and painless. It really is an amazing procedure to me that they can stick a needle through your stomach and all the way into the womb and withdraw amniotic fluid and then it replenishes itself within 2 hours and the small hole made grows back together quickly also. Of course the whole miracle of a baby and birth still just blows my mind.

So now is the 2 week waiting period while they test the amniotic fluids chormosones and such to see how it looks. Hopefully, I will hear back about it the Monday after Thanksgiving. Although, I do feel hopeful about the results you do just never know. Prayers are appreciated.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

15 week Dr. appt. and more

I had a Dr. appt. this morning and all went very well. The Dr. found the heartbeat very quickly and it was a strong 160bpm. He said "do you know what that means?" I said a "healthy baby." He said "yep, a healthy boy or a girl." I said, "GREAT, exactly what I am hoping for." It was funny.

I then had some blood drawn which wasn't bad the ladies that do it are so good and it is just a little prick then they are done. WOOT!! Love that.

I go back in 5 weeks on December 14th for my 20 week ultrasound where we will get to see our baby but NOT find out the sex of it. We are taking our girls with us. They can't wait to see the baby. I am so interested to see what they will think of it.
Oh and I must add that I have exercised 3 mornings in a row. The past several weeks it has been sporadic but I am feeling really good and I figured with the time change that would give me a boost this week and it has and I have gotten in 3 AM workouts and I can tell. My body and my mind feel even better because of it. 1 more for the week in the morning to meet my weekly goal of 4 workouts each week.

Tomorrow is my FRIDAY. I am leaving town after work with the husband and some friends so that my husband can go hunting and I can just go veg. No kids!!! Looking forward to the time away.

Oh and tonight the husband and I have a weeknight DATE NIGHT. We are going to see the one and only MERLE HAGGARD!!!! OH YEA!!!


Monday, November 8, 2010

15 weeks (almost)

I am 2 days shy of 15 weeks pregnant. WOOT!! It is finally picking up speed. I think that is b/c my days at work are busy as well as my evenings at home or not at home as they have been recently.

I am feeling REALLY GOOD!! I am loving the time change that just occured on Sunday. It gives me that morning boost that I need to get up and exercise. Hopefully, I can get my consistency back before I get used to the time change. An added bonus this morning my kids woke up on their own in such good moods and there was NO WHINING and it was SO GREAT!! Again, that won't last long b/c they will get used to the time change but I will take the good mornings that I can get for now.

I have a Dr. appt. on Wednesday to check the heart beat again and then to do a blood test. The appt. I schedule after that will be the 20 week ultrasound. Although, we ARE NOT finding out the sex of the baby I am still looking forward to that.

Friday, October 29, 2010

It's the weekend!

TGIF!!! What a busy weekend we have planned too. Dinner with friends and then a high school football game tonight, picking up hog meat from the butcher in the morning (yes, the pigs will be ham on our table as Chloe says), Razorback football game (homecoming) on Saturday night. Sunday is church, graduation party for my cousin who finished cosmetology school, then fall festival for our church then trick or treating with the girls in the evening. SHEW!! I need to find time to squeeze in a nap somewhere.


It is such beautiful weather here in Fayetteville, AR now. I LOVE FALL!!! The temperatures are perfect, the sky is blue and the trees are turning.


Oh get this, we are big fans of Justin Moore (country singer). He just so happens to be from a small town in Arkansas and he is coming to Fayetteville soon to play his music at a local bar. WE'VE GOT TICKETS!!! WOOT!! I can't wait!


Sunday, October 24, 2010

BIG NEWS!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!! Yes, baby #3 will be on his/her way in 27 weeks (I am almost 13 now), approximately May 4, 2011. WE ARE THRILLED!!! As I told you before we were trying for this baby and it happened very quickly for us as it has in the past. We are BLESSED and THANKFUL! We know everyone isn't given this gift as easily as some. We do not take it for granted.

Chloe and Lizzie are so excited. They talk about having a baby brother or sister and they can't wait for it to get here. Of course they think it will come tomorrow or in about a week. They have no concept of 7-8 months.

Unfortunately, for some, I have to tell you that we are NOT finding out the sex of the baby. We will have our 20 week ultrasound in 8 weeks but we will not have them tell us what it is. We love surprises. We did this when Chloe was born and it was SO NEAT. We did find out with Lizzie and enjoyed that as well but decided to wait this one out. There is no surprise like delivering a baby and someone saying "It's a ...." then getting to share the news with your family and friends in the waiting room. We do have names picked out though so I will share those with you in the coming weeks.

We did hear the heartbeat this past Monday on October 18th. The Dr. found it rather quickly and then measured my uterus and said "you are measuring kind of big, let's take a quick look and make sure there is only one baby in there." I looked at my husband and neither of us had an expression on our face at all and I think we are thinking "surely, it isn't twins." The Dr. put the scanner on my abdomen and quickly saw that there was just one baby. He smiled and laughed a bit and said "I really thought I was about to tell you that you are having twins." HA!! Only one healthy looking baby in there though in an oversized uterus I guess. He said my bladder must be really full even though I had just pee and didn't have the urge to go at all. Oh well, who knows what it was. Just ONE baby though. I have the pictures to prove it.

So happy that I was able to share this news with you so soon. I promise to keep you updated with my progress and such and will do a belly pick soon for you.

Friday, September 24, 2010

SEC MATCHUP!

#10 - THE ARKANSAS RAZORBACKS!!!


vs.


#1 ALABAMA CRIMSON TIDE!!!!!
This weekend in Fayetteville, AR will be a HUGE SEC matchup between Alabama and the Arkansas Razorbacks and I GET TO GO!!!! WOOT!!!

I am so pumped about this. I have tickets to all of the home games and I typically enjoy them but sometimes would just prefer to watch it on tv but NOT this weekend. I want to be there in person when we BEAT ALABAMA!!!

It isn't going to be easy and honestly if we want to win we are going to have to give it all we've got and more and hope that AL isn't on it's A game.

I am very hopeful though for some reason. I just really think we can pull it off. I HAVE FAITH IN MY RAZORBACKS!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOO PIG SOOIE
WOOOOOOOOOOOO PIG SOOIE
WOOOOOOOOOOOO PIG SOOIE
RAZORBACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you want to tune into what I believe to be a great football game you can catch it on CBS at 2:30 central time zone on Saturday.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

I am slacking.

Man, I am slacking in the blogging department. No reasons just haven't done it.

All is well though. Chloe has found her way in Kindergarten and seems to be enjoying it. It is hard to get out of her each day something that she learned. Of course I ask 1000 questions but only bet 1-2 responses. I know what thing she has learned and that is "patterns." She said "Mom, you want to know what a pattern is?" I said "sure." Then she proceded to show me a CMCMCMCM. Which is her first and last initial (glad she knows that). I was so proud of her. Now she points out any type of patter on anything. In fact she even pointed out the peace sign pattern on her new rain boots to me this morning. YAY!! Glad she is learning something at least. Oh and she did learn about money, change that is, and how much each is worth. YAY, that is WAY more important that patterns.

I am loving that it is finally cooling off a bit. I hate the hot weather. I am SO ready for fall to be in full force then I don't mine winter either. Remind me I said that when I am complaining about how cold it is.

Football season has started too and we are in full force. It isn't bad actually. J's team won the first game and tied the 2nd game, they don't do tie breakers in 8th grade football. It is practically a win in my book b/c they came back from a 14-0 defecit and 8th graders just don't usually do that so this was BIG!! It was the most action I have seen in an 8th grade game...EVER.

ok, so that is our life in a nut shell. All is well.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Pig show

We had the county fair pig show on Wednesday, September 1st. We weren't really sure if Chloe was going to show, willingly at least, she kept talking the night before and morning of the show how scared she was. This girls gets SO nervous with anything out of the norm and although she had pracited this for weeks it wasn't with other people in the ring or with anyone watching her. This time was different.
She placed 6th with one pig and 8th with one pig but she gets blue ribbons b/c she was in the top part of the class.

Later, her and Lizzie showed in the Pee Wee Showmanship division and Lizzie was all GRINS. She LOVED it.














Monday, August 30, 2010

County Fair time

Life is busy busy right now for us as it is for most of you as well. Chloe is doing GREAT in school. YAY!! She had a wonderful week last week and seems to actually enjoy it and is getting up good in the mornings to get ready. Lizzie doesn't seem to care that her sister isn't with her through the week now so we didn't have an adjustment there like we thought we might.

The county fair in our town starts tomorrow (Tuesday, August 31) so tonight we will take Chloe's show pigs up to the fair to stay the week so we have another CRAZY BUSY week on tap for us although it will be fun. Chloe will show her pigs on Wednesday during the day so she gets out of school that day. We will be up at the fair ground each night taking care of the pigs and visiting with friends and such that come by. I love to talk so this is right up my alley. Plus I love pigs.

Here is a pic of Chloe and Lizzie and their pigs. Hannah and Miley are their names by the way. Cute, huh? They weigh about 200 pounds right now approximately so they are a tad bigger than in this pic and they will look tons better after they have had a bath which will be tonight. They clean up pretty good for pigs that is.




Friday, August 20, 2010

What a week - FIRST DAY OF KINDERGARTEN!

I have been MIA. Sorry about that. I was trying to update my blog more frequently and that obviously isn't happening.

My daughter started Kindergarten this week and my focus has been solely on that. I have been anticipating this for a while now and very excited about it on one hand but very nervous about it on the other. My daughter is very timid with new things or change and I just wasn't sure how this would go. She has gone to a preschool 3 days a week for 4 years so she is used to that but almost always cried the first few days so obviously I assume K would be the same.

Well the first day came on Thursday and she SURPRISINGLY did well. No tears at all. My husband and I held it together until we got out of her site and then we shed a few tears just b/c we can't believe our baby girl is in K. WOW, what a huge life milestone to start school. I still can't believe it.

Here she is on her first day:
With her sweet and very proud little Sister. Lizzie goes around the house saying "Chloe going go big school." It is so sweet.
In her K room at her table.

Waving good bye to us with a smile. AWWWW!! What a moment that was.

Then comes the 2nd day of K which was this morning. She went to sleep so good last night and woke up in a good mood and the morning was going GREAT until we got to her K door and she did a 180 on me and had a complete meltdown. IT WAS BAD!! I started crying b/c I felt so bad for her and she would not go in the door and she stood in the hall for almost 15 minutes refusing to go in and then going limp when I tried to pick her up. Finally I got her into the room and told the student teacher I was going to leave and she restrained her as she cried and screamed "Mom" as I went out the door. Talk about HEARTBREAKING!! I knew she would be fine in a matter of minutes but it is very difficult to leave your child in such anguish. UGH!!
Thanks to e-mail I was able to to contact the teacher and she let me know that Chloe was doing fine. She held her for a bit and she calmed down and all was well now.
We shall see how Monday goes. Here's hoping for the best.


Thursday, August 12, 2010

MORE breakfast talk and Magic Bullet

I realized with my breakfast talk yesterday I forgot to mention one of my favorite things to eat and that is either turkey sausage or turkey bacon. They both give you that small taste of an un healthy/greasy breakfast without all of the calories and fat.


Here is something that I love that I do eat on occasion on the weekends when we have turkey sausage:

1 high fiber english muffin, they are 100 cals and like 8 grams of fiber and 5 grams protein

1 turkey sausage patty (or you could replace this with turk bacon)

1 slice 2% cheese

1 whole egg cooked over easy. (of course you could cook your egg however you prefer)


Can we say...HEALTHY FAST FOOD BREAKFAST EQUIVALENT!! YUM!


Another heatlhy alternative and something you can totally cook up a head of time and have ready to grab and go are breakfast burritos with eggs, cheese, turkey meat product, and veggies if you want in a low carb/high fiber tortilla. LOVE THOSE TOO!


I wanted to share a few of the suggetions that others made in my comments suggestions about their favorite breakfasts. They all sound so good.



1/4 cup of oats cooked in water w/ 1/4 c banana whipped into it while it is cooking. When done add in whey protein powder and cinnamon.


It must be good b/c she says she dreams about it at night and can't wait to eat it. Hmmm, might need to give this a try.



She loves her oatmeal with almond milk and 1 tbsp of bee pollen with packet of truvia and splash of Davinici Gourmet SF syrups.


She said these syrups are AWESOME and they come in 40 flavors like Toasted Marshmallow, German Chocolate Cake, Dulce Leche.


YUM!! I have heard of these Davinici syrups before and I might need to give them a try too. You get them here: http://www.davincigourmet.com/products/sugar_free_flavored_syrups/


Natalie at Normal to Natalie said: (this is actually one of my personal favorites, love me some protein pancakes!)

1/2 cup dry reg oatmeal1

1/2 cup ff cottage cheese

1/2 cup egg whites

1/2 cup egg beaters (because they are thicker than the egg whites and with much experimenting this is the best consistancy)

Blend in magic bullet and cook on griddle just like you would pancakes. yum! also, lately I've been adding a small handful of baby spinach leaves before blending. adds some vitamins and fiber and doesn't change the flavor any just turns them green.

Side note from Dawn: Great idea to add the spinach. I make a green monster as some refer to it with 1 scoop of protien powder and a large handful of spinach and blend up and it is a great way to get in your healthy greens without having to eat them. I am just not a big fan of them in regular consistency but I love them blended up.


Oh and if you do not have a magic bullet I HIGHLY recommend this as a purchase. In fact this is what one looks like when you are blending a green monster.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Let's talk Breakfast

I eat the SAME breakfast every day with the exception of putting either 1 cup of blueberries or blackberries in my oatmeal on some mornings. As for the eggs they almost never change. I eat 6-7 egg whites cooked in the shape on omelett with cinnamon and splenda sprinkled on it.

I start with regular eggs and seperate them myself b/c it is cheaper than buying the egg whites in a carton although I have done that in the past this is way more cost effective.


Here is my splenda in the red canister and my cinnamon.
I spray the skillet with olive oil spray or butter flavored spray and I actually turn the skillet on to medium heat at #6 and I crack and seperate the egg whites directly into the skillet (just keeps me from dirtying up another bowl. I do put the yolks in a small bowl then put them down the sink.

I just let the egg mixture sit until it sets up and then I flip half of it over like you see in the picture below. Then I sprinkle a tad more splenda and cinnamon on that side.
Then I flip to the other side and sprinkle again and cut it in half to make sure it is cooked all the way through (I don't like runny egg whites but I do like runny yolks like a sunny side egg...go figure). Then I put it in a tupperware container and put it in the fridge and I heat it up in the microvave the next morning at work for about 45 seconds. I make it at night almost always to save time in the morning.



Here is my 1/2 cup of dry oatmeal made with 1 cup of water and splenda and cinnamon and cooked in the microwae for about 3 minutes. YUM!!!!
Also, with the eggs you could also scramble the egg whites and still use the splenda and cinnamon. I choose the omelett way b/c I can let it sit and cook while I am prepping other foods for my breakfast. If you scramble you have to take time to stir it more often.

I am a creature of habit. I have had this exact same breakfast 98% of the time for the last 9 months. I never seem to get tired of it.
There are so many other ideas like:
1) egg/veggie omelet and a fruit
2) english muffin with peanut butter and a fruit
3) greek yogurt, fruit
4) toast, eggs, fruit
5) waffle, eggs, fruit
6) protein shake and oatmeal
A good balanced breakfast in my opinion has protein and some healthy carb in the form of veggies, fruit or a grain.
What are some of your favorite healthy breakfast ideas?

Friday, August 6, 2010

My current menu

So I thought I would post what my current menu is looking like.

B - 6 egg whites, 1/2 cup of blueberries, 1/2 cup of oatmeal. Almost exactly what I ate for 7 months during bikini comp prep minus the blue berries. I just love this breakfast. I am so addicted to my oatmeal and egg whites with cinnamon and splenda on both that I can't deter from this habitual breakfast.

Mid - morning snack - 12 almonds and a protien shake

L - Cole slaw mixture with a little bit of light miracle whip and spicy southwestern mustard with a can of tuna mixed in (this is really good and so easy). 1 cucumber or 1 bell pepper with 2 tbsp of hummus

Aft snack - apple and peanut butter

Aft snack #2 (I am always hungriest in the afternoons so I have two snacks) - 12 almonds and either sf/ff pudding or sf jello

Dinner - some type of protein like ground turkey, chicken or lean ground beef and a green veggie

If hungry before bed I have a protein shake with a little bit of water, 1 tbsp of sf/ff jello pudding powder, 1 scoop of protein powder and lots of ice mixed up in the magic bullet. It comes out slushy. It is really good.

So that is how my current menu looks. I don't deviate from it very much b/c I just eat the same things over and over.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Change of heart

After MUCH deep thought and consideration and I going back and forth in my mind I have decided to NOT do the bikini competition in Topeka, KS in 8 weeks. I realize it is only 8 weeks out but my heart is just not in it.

I worked so hard for 7 months and ate so SOLID and was so dedicated to my food and exercised on average 6 days a week for 28 weeks in a row and exercised 2 times a day for 3-4 days a week for about 20 of those weeks and honestly, my mind and my body are just not into it as I thought they were.

I am SO SUPER DUPER proud that I did the Chattanooga comp and there is a good chance down the road that I will do it again but for now it is not in the cards for me.

My mind is on having a baby and finding the balance and searching for the food control that I am still lacking and then having a healthy pregnancy.

The great thing is that I have had these thoughts of possibly not doing the competition for 2 weeks and I have still stuck to my bikini food plan and exercise schedule and that makes me feel so good. I haven't eaten anything off my plan for 3 weeks now. YAY!! I had a great moment both weekend evenings in which I showed a lot of food control and I was SO PROUD of myself. Saturday night we went to dinner for my BIL's birthday and he chose Olive Garden. I seeked out the best thing on the menu for me and it was the Venetian Apricot Chicken which is SO GOOD. So I had that and 2 servings of salad with no breadsticks and that has no pasta. The apricot chicken has 380 cals, 32 carbs and 4 grams of fat and it is mighty tasty. Then Sunday night we were at my in-laws and my MIL cooked cheese dip (my favorite) and beef enchiladas and fried okra AND cupcakes for dessert. I thought to myself "this is the first time in 3 weeks that you will eat off a bikini plan and you must have control." and I DID. I got myself a small plate and put a small serving of enchiladas and fried okra and chips and a ramekin of cheese dip and that was it. I even passed up on the cupcakes. WOW!! SO SO PROUD OF the decision that

I made last night. I can tell I have made the right decision b/c honestly I feel somewhat relieved.

My new goals are to just eat clean on a daily basis. If I want fruit with my oatmeal and then an apple for a snack then I am going to eat it. I will stay away from sugar unless I just feel like I can't pass something up and I will stay away from bread, pastas and most dairy too. For now I am not even planning to eat a cheat meal weekly, if something comes up that I want to eat that is off my clean eating plan then I will eat a controlled portion of it and if not then I will just keep on with my plan.I will workout a consistent 5 days a week doing morning workouts before work for 45-60 minutes. I do plan to keep up with the weights though and I can do that at home or do an occasional one at the gym.

I do want to lose about 5 pounds and mostly inches and I will just do that slowly over time. At this moment in time I feel good about where I am and where my head is at and I am happy with that.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Cruising along

All is well just cruising along. Eating chicken and green beans and lots of tuna and getting in my cardio in the morning and then three strength sessions per week either at lunch or after work.

I am in my 3rd week of my boot camp class and still enjoying that pretty well. My only complaint is that the instructor does not keep up a good pace from one exercise to the next. The people in there could challenge themsevles A LOT more if the instructor would push them a little harder. Oh well, if I want to do it my way then I guess I need to teach my own class. If I thought people would come to my street at 5:30 am I just might do that.

Life is good, no complaints (except that it is TOO HOT!).

Saturday, July 24, 2010

This is why you paint on the tan!

I have been meaning to share these pics with my blog family and I haven't gotten around to it. You know how I have talked about the wicked dark tan that you paint on. Well below is the reason why they do it in these competitions. It makes the muscles POP. It is more important for the body builders and figure competitors b/c while they are on stage they actually flex their muscles and that is how they are judged. So having the tan just brings out the muscles in full force.

So after my first coat of tan Friday night before the competition I decided to flex and my friends exclaimed "Dawn, LOOK AT YOUR MUSCLES." Well I couldn't see the back ones very well for obvious reasons so I had them take a picture for me. I love my new found muscles so I LOVED seeing this.

Check this out:



Tuesday, July 20, 2010

DETOUR from my previous plan.

So as you know I stated in my post a few weeks ago that we hope to have a 3rd child in the near future. Well that is still a very true statement but the baby making is going to be put off just a few weeks b/c I have decided to do ANOTHER BIKINI COMPETITION!!! Yes, you read that right, one more competition before I hang up the stripper heels and bikini and press on to extend our family.

Here is the story:
My friend, Joni, lives in Kansas and before the Chattanooga competition she mentioned possibly doing the Kansas State Show in Topeka, KS. I immediately told her that I would consider doing it too. After the Chatty comp she spoke of her plans which did not consist of the Kansas competition which was fine with me. I was good with her decision either way and I had not planned to do it alone. Well, last week rolled around and I get a very exciting e-mail from her saying that SHE IS DOING THE SHOW. I immediately start thinking in my mind that "I WANT TO DO IT TOO." I talked to my immediate support system which consist of my husband and parents and they all said GO FOR IT! So here I am in my 11 week (a little less now), 74 days, out from a bikini comp in Topeka, KS.

As some other competitors that I know have said "you have been bitten by the bug." I guess I have. I know that I am never going to win or even place (although, I do have my 5th place out of 5 trophy at home on my vanity, WOOT WOOT). I do not by any means have the hard rock smokin' bodies that 95% of the contestants have but I want to do it anyway. When I ran my full marathon last year my bib said "Because I can" and that is the exact way that I feel about these body competitions. I can do the prep and training to the best of my ability and get on that stage and feel so DARN FABULOUS and know that I DID THIS and I simply love that feeling. I let so many years of my life pass me by, although enjoying my family and friends, deep down I was not pleased with ME and was not reaching my potential because of it.

Finally, those times have changed and I intend to make the most of it. We all know how short life can be and so while I am on earth I want to know that I loved my family and my friends and that I spent quality time with them enjoying life and that I gave myself the best life that I could and did things that I wanted to do for me along the way.

So with that being said I am going for it. I have 74 days until show day so we will see what type of outcome I have this time. I have the shoes and I have the NPC card that you need to be able to register for the shows. I do think I want to get a new suit, same style as the purple but a different color. I will have to get another bottle of that crazy tanner, seriously that stuff cracks me up for some reason b/c you are just wicked dark and it is just unnatural but it is all a part of the body competition package so I will go along with it.

74 days, here we go on another roller coaster ride. WHEEEEEEE!!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Guest blogger and check out her AMAZING PROGRESS!

Stacia has a blog, too. I have been trying to get her to share her lifestyle transformation on it so she could inspire those that read her blog. Maybe now she will.

Start of her post:

I have asked Dawn if I could guest blog on her blog….after I did I was not sure where I would start as I get nervous & get my words tangled ha!

I came across Dawn’s blog about a year and a half ago and I would watch, never comment just watch.

The entire time thinking WOW!!!! I would stop looking at her blog for a bit and then find myself right back on her blog, I was just so amazed!

After some time I commented and asked Dawn for her email and asked if she would help guide me, boy has she ever!

I have never met anyone with such determination and spunk!
(I say that loosely as we have not actually met yet, but we will if I need to take a trip to her town J)

Dawn and I would talk through email and she would make suggestions I would listen and keep on eating what I was eating or I would even try a bit but it was not consistent. One day in either the end of February or early March I was like okay “I can do this too!”

And here I am 23 lbs lighter (or it was 23 lbs last I checked, hopefully more now)

Yes I have a long way to go and 23 lbs is not that much but I am getting there! I COULD NOT have done any of it without Dawn, she inspires me like you would not believe!! Anything I need help with whether it be food ideas or text at 5:00 a.m. to get out of bed and burn those calories she is right there for me, even checking in on me while she vacations.

I want to say Thank You Dawn & You Rock!!!


Thank you, Stacia for such kind words. Nothing gives me more gratification/satisfacation than knowing that I inspired someone to get off the couch and get moving and eat healthy. I tell people all of the time that the grass is truly greener on this side of the fence and if I made it over here than ANYONE CAN DO IT! Where there is a will there is a way and I encourage you to find the "way" just like Stacia did. Keep rollin', Stacia, b/c at this pace you are getting closer and closer to your goal as the days go by.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

BOOT CAMP!!!!

So I needed a change up from going to my spare bedroom in the mornings to work out b/c over time it just gets kind of boring as you might imagine. There is an organized, meet in a parking lot, have a trainer guide you, boot camp class in my area. I have been wanting to do it for months and it finally works out. I am there just a tad before 5:30 am and it starts at 5:30 on the dot and last a full hour. The hour flies by though. I just completed my 2nd day this morning and I really like it.

The first day seemed rather easy and I was a tad disappointed but I was hoping maybe they just build over time. I was originally thinking it would just be balls to the wall from the first day and if you could keep up, great, and if not then you would eventually be able to keep up but that isn't how they do it apparently. Which is fine and totally fits most people's fitness levels.

Anyway, after the 2nd morning I can tell that they will increase the difficulty and intensity over time and over the next 4 weeks so that is a plus. I just do everything harder and faster to get my heart rate up where I know it needs to be so that I am burning fat most efficiently. That is the good thing about it is that you can learn how to adjust it to fit your needs more.

I do love the group atmosphere. I have always loved group exercise classes and I haven't done them in a while. It makes the hour pass by so fast which is a huge bonus.

I will keep you updated on it as it goes along. Thursday we do a fitness test to see how long we can hold a plank, how many sit ups we can do, how long we can hold a wall (squat) sit and then we do a 12 minute run also. WOOT!! Can't wait to see how I do with those.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Did I make you proud?

I realize this is my blog and I should be doing the writing but often I come across other wonderful things that people write and if I don't share it here then you will never get to read it and I don't want that. So I have to share this blog with you below. I think that often people that are embarking on this health/fitness journey to change their lives often just need to read/see one thing that will get them off the couch and to eating healthy food. You just never know what that one thing might be. My thought is that this blog below might just be the ticket for some people and could be the beginning of their "AHA, I have had enough of being how I am" moment.

This was written on facebook by a friend of my trainer, Corinne, from Phit-N-Phat. Carlene is a figure competitor and personal trainer and the mother of 3 kids. This is her site: http://www.mommysbody.com/

A friend of mine (Carlene) on Facebook wrote this and I thought it was important to share with PNP girls and future readers. Let's not ever forget the blessings we are given. USE them instead of finding excuses to avoid them.

I have been in good physical condition for most of my life. I think I can even say that I have been in peak physical condition – enough to rival any athlete – for most of my adult life. I have been so very, amazingly blessed to have a career in the health and fitness industry. It so happens that even my "hobby" is in health and fitness, through figure competing. As a matter of fact, most of the people that will read this will likely be “in the industry”; but in the best event, that it reaches some of those NOT in the fitness industry….know this is for you.

Since I work in the field of helping people get fit and healthy, I get asked many, many questions. But over the years, one question stands out above all others. The question is “How do you do it? How do you work, manage a home and 3 kids, AND find time to exercise?”

Many assume that I am in good shape BECAUSE I compete. While that would be a good enough reason, it isn’t so with me. I only compete because I stay in shape. Many assume it is for the aesthetic benefits. That too, should be reward enough. But the truth is, MY reasons, my truth as to why/how I do what I do goes much deeper. I seldom venture into conversation about my inner thoughts on why I stay fit, but since I get asked so often, I thought I would open up and share.

I actually did start out (like many other women “in the industry”) as a teenage girl with body image issues, which eventually lead to eating disorders. Thank goodness I did not struggle too long with it, before my totally in-tune mother caught on and put a big fat (pardon the pun) quietus on that whole scene. Many may think it harsh, but she plainly and flatly told me that I was NOT going to be a cheater. She told me that if I was not happy with myself, then I was to do something about it….the HARD way…the REAL way. She said starving and vomiting was the cheaters way and she sure as well was not going to stand for it. If I wanted something, I had to work for it. That week, she made sure that I went to check out the local gyms and pick one to join. My dad played taxi for me (at 15) to get me to and from the gym several nights a week and I really was hooked. I was fortunate that I started to develop an appreciation for my body at an early age. But my story does not end there.

Perhaps my appreciation gave way to what happened next, or perhaps it is my Christian beliefs (I like to think it a blend of the two) but I started having recurring dreams. In my dreams, it was my time to meet my maker. I have no idea if I had lived a long life or a short one, but in the end, when I got to Jesus, I was startled to find Him in a wheelchair (yes, I know it’s odd, but who can really explain their dreams? It always makes sense while you are IN the dream). Yes, Jesus was in a wheel chair. As I stood before him, and gazed down at Him, He looked me in the eye and He said:
“You may be surprised to see me this way, but let me explain. I absolutely had the option to be free of this handicap; I could have chosen to walk among you. Instead, I chose to give MY ability to walk to one of my children. I had to choose carefully, and I chose you. Please, tell me, what you have done with that gift?” All I could do was stare in shock, feeling abject and utterly unworthy!

This is a recurring dream for me. It started out with Jesus in a wheel chair, but at times, He had other afflictions. Sometimes, He has a bad heart, sometimes bad lungs, sometimes chronic pain. Yes, I know these are manifestations of my own mind, translated into my dreams and while I am sure they last only seconds, their impact lasts forever. I cannot help but always be mindful of the “gifts” I have been given. Yes, given. I didn’t earn them, I didn’t deserve them, yet I was given them.

I have no doubt I have MANY shortcomings in my life. I am certainly not professing that I do it all right. I am constantly seeking ways to improve. I am not trying to be like anyone else. I am not simply seeking a trophy on a stage…or your approval. I am seeking the approval of my maker; I am seeking a “well done” from my God.When I stand before Him at the end, and He asks me, I want to tell Him that each and every day I used my legs to carry me many miles, with no destination in mind – because they could. I worked my heart every day to make it stronger. I challenged my lungs on a regular basis only so they could be more efficient. I want to tell Him I fed my body the clean foods it needed for total system optimization and I want to tell Him I fed my soul with His words and the wonder of everything He created around me.

While many may pay me compliments on the physical appearance of my body…..or judge me for standing on a stage in a small bikini with my body on display (which can seem an odd reconciliation to my conservative, Christian beliefs) I am here to tell them all that my body & my health are my biggest tribute. They are my best testament to my Savior and those around me that I did not take my “gifts” for granted. When my time does come, whenever that may be, I want to stand before my Father, having not forsaken Him, look Him in the eye, and ask “Did I make you proud?”

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Vanity sizing

I loved this. It was written by my trainer, Corinne at Phit-N-Phat. Wanted to share b/c I totally 100% agree with her.

Vanity Sizing...My Thoughts

I had a client of PNP recently go shopping and got frustrated that so many sizes in the same store weren't fitting, weren't consistent, etc. This opened the flood gates for discussion in her journal about how:

- we can't use the scale too much as an indicator of weightloss success.
- inches also don't always tell the story since we don't measure every part of the body that shrinks. Like you really measure your forearms, knees, etc., and they can all lose fat.
- body fat is skewed too often unless you are using a dunk tank. Many trainers are inconsistent, don't measure enough points, or just don't know how.

Honestly, I've heard another online trainer say it many times and I agree with him, there is only one true measure of progress: the mirror. Take a look in it! You either like it, see changes month-to-month, don't see any progress, or see yourself getting bigger.
So, I made a post to her about my last trip to Vegas...here's what I said and hope it gives you an idea of how to use vanity sizing positively and not let it dictate how you feel about yourself. It all comes down to what you look like to YOU and the WORLD.

You are not alone. I was just talking about this with Chris in Vegas. I kid you not, in my luggage I had a pair of 4 jeans, 6 boot cut jeans that are TIGHTER than the 4's and the 4's are skinny jeans no less, a pair of 8's I never broke out due to wearing leggings under some CUTE new dress type tops, and a pair of 10's that just feel so good I don't give a toot what the heck the tag says. They travel EXCELLENT and give me a cute shape when my top is tighter.
So, I packed the rainbow of vanity sizing. For awhile it bothered me to have bigger sizes, then I went through a phase of buying crap fitting jeans because of the size in the tag. Now I have decided to LOOK and FEEL good in my clothes because I'm more likely to exercise and eat right when I'm not bah-humbug over how my waist or thighs feel.

One other thing...why do you put yourself through torture of trying on old shorts you KNOW you wore when you were at a weight you didn't love outside of the number? You said it yourself: you were skinny fat and super unhealthy with your eating.

Losing weight and changing your lifestyle to a healthy one is 80 food and 20 exercise. But if you divide it three ways it's 60 mental, 25 food, and 5 exercise. Get out of your mental way, eat right, and move. Amazing how dumping the brain fog of long term diet mentality will help most people accept they just need to be healthy and not starving.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

What's next?

Now that I have completed a marathon and bikini competition you might be wondering what is next on the "bucket list" so to speak. Would you believe me if I told you it is to expand our family and have a third baby? Well, it is TRUE!! That is what we want to do.

We decided long ago that we wanted 3 kids if it was meant to work out that way for us. We now have 2 girls so it is time to get started on the 3rd to see if we are meant to be the parents of 3 children.

Just to answer a few questions that you might be wondering about:

1) Are we trying for a boy? The answer is NO! We are trying for a baby. We would LOVE to have a boy obviously since we don't have one. What a treat that would be for us. We would also LOVE to have a third girl. What a special thing that would be to have three sweet girls. My husband is in a family with 2 other boys and when they get together which is often they just automatically revert back to childhood. It is the strangest and neatest thing to watch them interact and they are SO MUCH alike yet so different.

2) Are you sure you want to get pregnant after you have worked so hard to lose the fat? The answer is YES! It's just fat, it comes with the territory and if you are mindful you can limit it. Whatever I gain I will lose in time. I am not going to let the weight gain keep me from having another baby. Having a baby is just too big of a priority for me to let some additional weight get in the way.

3) When? Let's just say we are no longer preventing it BUT we aren't trying real hard over the next couple of months. I am hoping to settle in and find my happy weight over the next 6-8 weeks before we really start trying but if we were to get pregnant between now and then which I know can happen b/c it happened with my 2nd daugher (pregnant the first month) then we would not be sad. After 2 months have passed though then it is serious business in the baby making department and we will just see what happens. We were very blessed with getting pregnant quickly with our first two so we will see if we have the same luck with the 3rd. If for some reason we aren't able to we will just be grateful for the two we have and figure we were meant to have two and be fine with it.

In the mean time I will continue to find my balance with food and keep up with the exercise though. By the way I have NOT weighed. I have no idea what I am at currently. I am thinking between 135-140 which I am fine with. I don't have a set number that I want to be. Just want to feel good about the food I am putting in my mouth and the clothes I am wearing and the way I look in the mirror. The scale will fall where it will.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Competition Recap!

Warning this is long read if you like or skim or ignore. I just want to have this in writing in the history books (my blog - until something happens to it at least).

It has been a little over two weeks since the competition already. It is kind of like Christmas, you pepare for it for months before hand and you get SO excited then it is over in a flash like Christmas morning/day is.

First, I want to say that this is the hardest thing I have done to date physically and mentally FOR SURE. Harder than a 4 year college degree (that took me 10 years to get) and harder than the marathon, not that either one of those accomplishments were easy by any means though b/c they absolutely weren't.

Second, I want to say that I AM SO GLAD that I DID THIS and I would have always regretted it if I would not have went for it.

You guys know how I felt through the process from reading my journal for the past 28 weeks. It was a roller coaster with so many ups and down. Thankfully, I think the majority of the days I felt good and positive but when I was down it was rough but again, thankfully, those times quickly passed.

I am ABSOLUTEY AMAZED at what I was able to accomplish. I never really thought I would be able to stay that dedicated to the exercise THAT LONG and I never thought I would be able to stay THAT COMMITTED to the food THAT LONG...BUT I DID!! It just proves the point that you don't know what you are capable of until you actually DO IT and see what you can really do. We all TOTALLY UNDERESTIMATE ourselves, even me.

As far as the actual competition goes it was just GREAT. I really tried to soak it all in, kind of like my rehearsal dinner and wedding day when I got married. I really wanted to always remember that day and that weekend that was so special to me and J and the competition was a lot like that. I knew like a wedding event that this might be the only time that I ever do this so I wanted to lock it up in my memory for safe keeping.

Getting to Corinne's and seeing her and Joni first just warmed my heart. It was so great to hug them and see them in person. Then later Caroline and Bobby showed up and then Maggie and Jane and it was just GREAT. It puts a smile on my face thinking about it. Then the next day I get to see Lisa when she comes to pick up the crew then we get to the hotel in Chattanooga and we see Roxane and David. Let me tell you this, you think all of these women look AWESOME in pictures well you should see them in person. They were TINY!! All just SO SO SMALL and SO BEAUITUFUL. The pictures just don't to anyone justice in my opinion. I just kept staring at Joni and saying how small she was compared to the last time I saw her a year ago at Phat Camp. I just couldn't get over it. (All of the above people are members of Phit-N-Phat.com and we all did the competition together. 4 of us did the bikini division and 2 of them did the figure division)

Friday night we went to check in at the host hotel and that was our first glimpse of some of the other competitors. I don't know if I speak for everyone but I am pretty sure I do when I say we were in "awe" of so many of the women. When you know what it takes to do something like this and make it to the stage you just have a new respect for those women and men of course and you see their muscles and their physiques. It is just amazing.

To top it off, you won't believe this but when I was sitting there completing some forms I look over to my right and I see two girls that look VERY familiar and to my amazement once again was Becca and Jessica. Becca who is my trainer for this bikini competition with her husband Tim and Jessica who is her friend who are both from Michigan who I have gotten to know through their blogs and e-mail. They drove ALL the way from MI to support me and 2 other competitiors. I could NOT BELIEVE IT. Tears came to my eyes as I was thinking how supportive they have been and how they took time out of their life to come support me and they have never even met me in person until this exact moment. WOW! What good friends. I am SO BLESSED.

Then it was time to head back to the hotel to get our tan on. You guys the tan is so wicked dark. I think I stood there with my mouth open in amazement at how dark it was when sweet Maggie and Jane were painting it on. Bless their hearts they were just so awesome. They did everything for us and got up very close and personal with us. I told them I have never been up this close and personal with my lifetime friends but I felt totally comfortable with them. It was a funny moment for sure.

I forgot to mention that my parents had arrived after we got back from the check in and it was good to see them. I am so truly blessed to have such wonderful parents that drove so long to support me. They could not get over how good I looked and they kept telling me so. They are both just full of compliments which is always nice to hear. They were proud to say the least.

So bed time came as I slept on my own sheets that I brought with me to put on the hotel bed. Saturday morning was going to come early with a 4:45 alarm set. I hardly slept as you might imagine.

Oh and my girls and my husband were so great through all of this they just did whatever I needed them to do and they stayed out of the way when needed. My girls just stared at me with the tan. They didn't know what to think. Jeremy said "don't touch me." HA!! Jeremy said this weekend is about YOU so don't worry a bit about me. AWWW, SO SWEET. I AM SO BLESSED!

Saturday morning I headed to Corinne's room where the lights were bright and the getting ready process had already began. You know I had on a layer of tan already and you can't get wet b/c it will come off so I bent over the bath tub and Sweet Maggie washed my hair for me then I blow dryed and put it up in my famous velcro rollers while Joni was getting her make up done by Corinne. Then it was my turn and Corinne turned me into a DIVA!! What fun that was. Seriously, I felt like a ROCK STAR!! Then the BIG HAIR came down. Oh and I got another layer of tan in there somewhere. I forgot to share that my Saturday morning breakfast was a double cheeseburger plain with no bun. J had bought it the night before when he was out to eat and we put it in a fridge. Even though it wasn't warm I actually thought it was REALLY TASTY!

So before we know it is time to load up and head to the Tivoli Theater for a quick meeting of the competitors and pre-judging. It was just so cool being there and being a part of all of it and seeing the other competitiors with their tans on and their make up done and their hair did. JUST SO COOL!! Words can't really describe it.

Then it was time for pre-judging to start and I still wasn't too nervous...YET. Oh, also I had learned that there were 5 people in my bikini short class (it was divided into 3 parts, short,medium and tall) and they give trophy's to the top 5 so I knew I would get one. WOOT!! What a great momento.

The other 4 ladies in my class were all so sweet and as excited and nervous as I was as we were getting ready to go on stage.

I was standing waiting to go on and I was slightly nervous but not too bad but as soon as I stepped out from behind the curtain and actually onto the stage and saw the thousand judges staring at you and blinded by the stage lights I was scared to death! My heart was beating SO SO SO FAST and my legs were shaking. It was one of those moments that I thought my heart would beat out of my chest for sure. I smiled the entire time though. I tried to concentrate on that. I could hear my fans saying "GO 40 (my number)" and "GO DAWN" and the best one "GO MOMMY GO". I teared up at first but I knew I didn't want to cry so I dried it up and just soaked in the moment. I looked at the judges and tried to look at my family even though I couldn't see them I knew they could tell I was looking at them.

Then I did my thing on stage and stepped off the stage and SHEW that part was done. I had done it. I WAS A FULL FLEDGED BIKINI COMPETITOR!! The funny thing is that I wasn't scared at all about being in my bikini out there. I didn't care that people were seeing me in it. I felt so good about how I LOOKED that I wasn't bothered by that. I think it was just the judges and the people and the event that made my heart beat so fast and my legs shake but not that I didn't feel good about me.

It took my heart a little bit of time to slow down even after I stepped off the stage.
Then we had some down time after everyone was done. We cheered the others on which was such a great moment as well to see your friends that you know have worked so hard do their thing and accomplish such an amazing goal.

So we ate some lunch, I had a hamburger patty again and a diet coke and then we rested at the hotel then it was time to freshen up and do it all over again at the night show. You would have thought I would have been less nervous and I was hoping that I was BUT I wasn't. Still nervous and scared but it was still SO WONDERFUL knowing I WAS DOING IT!! I got my 5th place trophy and I was so proud. I teared up again when I was standing there with it.

I thought to myself "I REALLY DID THIS, DAWN, YOU REALLY are standing on stage in a bikini at a competition...WOW" Shew, I am tearing up right now writing this. I still can't believe I did it. SO PROUD, JUST SO PROUD!

So I will end my recap there, I could say so much more but that was it in a nutshell. What a life experience that I will NEVER forget. I am so thankful that I stepped out on a limb and chipped away at it little by little and stuck with it and just WENT FOR IT!! I will always remember this moment in my life.

Monday, June 21, 2010

HELLO from the BEACH!


I am having a WONDERFUL time with my family on the beach. I had planned to give you a big report while I was on vacation but I am just going to do it when I return so that I can focus on my family vacation for now.


I did post that new picture at the top of my blog this was me at the hotel between the pre-judging and the night show. I realize it is a BIG picture. I will have to mess with the size when I get back to my home computer instead of this slower laptop I am on.
FYI - On the morning of the competition after water/sodium deplete I weighed in at a very small 124.8!!! I could not believe it. To be at that for just a day was very cool. As of this past Friday, June 18th I weighed in just to see what I was at and I was at 132.4. Which I was very pleased with. Obviously, I knew I would not stay in the 120's and I am completely fine with that. Just trying to enjoy my vacation for now with a few treats but not go overboard. If I can stay under 140 through my vacation then try to settle in around 135 I think that is what I am hoping to do. Time will tell though. I have exercised 6 out of the 8 days that I have been on vacation though and I am SO PROUD of that. Frankly, I am in such the habit of exercising 5-7 days a week and I feel so much better when I do and I do not want to get out of the habit. I have been sleeping in until 6:45 and working out from 7-8 and can enjoy the rest of my day with my family while still getting my "me time" that my body and mind love.


Here are a few other pics too:

Here I am before my first layer of tan. The tan was WICKED DARK!! It was just so crazy how dark it was. I liked it though b/c it was so out of the norm.




I am getting my make up done Saturday morning around 5:30 AM by Corinne.


This is me and my dear friend, Joni, that did the bikini comp with me. She is with Phit-N-Phat also. This was at the competitors meeting before the pre-judging started on Saturday morning at 9.



Backstage before the pre-judging.


Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I DID IT! Brief check-in

Sorry for the delay in my post. We started our vacation a day early and we have not had internet. I am in the parking lot of a McD's at the moment posting this.

I don't have pics to share at the moment. I will though hopefully later this week when I download them and come back to McD's.

Just wanted to tell you that the competition was AWESOME!! It was an amazing life experience that I am so thankful that I did.

I have a new respect for those competitors. I obviously got a taste of what it is like to dedicate yourself to such a goal but it is a completely other thing to get out there on that stage with confidence. I was SCARED TO DEATH!! I had no idea I would be that scared and honestly I am glad I didn't realize it until I was already on the stage. My heart was about to beat out of my chest and my legs were totally shaking from the anxiety. I think I managed to smile and my friends said they couldn't tell I was that nervous. I think they were just being kind though.

I have a lot more to share about it but just wanted to start with that. I will have to go in more detail after my vacation which lasts a while longer so it will be another week and half or so before I share more. I have SO MANY people to thank also. I did not accomplish this goal alone that is for sure.

A major plus was that there were 5 people in the bikini short class that I was in so all 5 of us got trophys so I walked away with a 5th place trophy to always remember the moment and my accomplishment.

ok, that is it for now I could type for hours sharing everything but my family is ready to leave the McD's parking lot.

Thanks again for all of the well wishes. Can't wait to share the pics with you of my experience.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

2 days

When I wake up in the morning I will have 2 days until the STAGE!!! I STILL CANNOT believe I am doing this.

I am feeling pretty good. TIRED still but I have been so busy preparing for our trip and running around like a chicken with my head cut off so I am sure that is playing into my tiredness.

Doing well on the 2 gallons of water a day although it is a challenge. I will drink 2 gallons on the road tomorrow. OY!! I wonder how many pit stops we will have to make. Oh and tomorrow is NO SODIUM day so the water should run right through me or it might start doing that towards the end of the day b/c I will still have some sodium in me from the past few days.

I am cooking up my chicken and getting I made my oatmeal into pancakes so that I can eat it on the road better. I have 2 servings of broccoli and then 1 oz of almonds that I will eat tomorrow.

Friday is my chicken, no sodium rice cake and no sodium peanut butter day. YUM, PEANUT BUTTER. I CAN'T WAIT to sink my teeth into that.

Oh and as soon as I step off the stage Saturday night I have a beautiful red/crispy fuji apple with peanut butter and a small package of pecan halfs. As I was at the store today getting last minute stuff for our trip I was thinking about what I wanted and I LOVE ME SOME PECANS so I got a small package (if I had a big package I would eat all of it).

Well I better get off here so I can finish my to do list before I hit the sack.

I am asking for prayers for our safe travel. We will be in a vehicle on a busy interstate for 10 hours or so.

If I can I will try to post Thursday or Friday but I am not guaranteeing it. I will for sure post on Sunday WITH PICTURES!!!!

THANK YOU ALL FOR THE SUPPORT AND THE WONDERFUL COMPLIMENTS!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

4 days out

Well the clock is ticking down and today I am actually too tired and have too much on my mind to think about it. I will be glad when Thursday AM get her and we are ready to load up in the car and head out.

You know what it is like getting ready for any trip...stressful! It will all work out though and we will have everything. If we don't we can buy it at a Wal-Mart.

I am just sitting here chugging my water. When you have to drink 2 gallons you are almost constantly taking sips it seems or sometimes I just have dedicated chug session every 15-30 minutes.

This afternoon on the agenda is a fresh painting on the toes and a fill of the nails then home to pack the girls clothes then my clothes after they go to bed. Tomorrow I am off work so it will be grocery shopping and food prep. Yes, I have to get groceries BEFORE I leave town to take with me for my food as well as for my kids and hubby. We are non-stop travelers except to pee. We snack and drink in the car. We will be stopping during lunch time tomorrow to visit my sister for a short bit then back on the road to Nashville.

I hope to make a brief post tomorrow then that will be it before I post the pictures on Sunday.

Thanks again for all of the comments and support and well wishes. I can't thank you enough.

Monday, June 7, 2010

5 days...REALLY?

I want to take a minute to thank ALL of you for the wonderful and encouraging comments you are leaving on my blog. MUCH APPRECIATED!!!!!!

I posted this on my Phit-N-Phat journal that I post to almost daily which is like my electronic diary basically. I wanted to share these thoughts with blog world too.

So last night J and I were on our way home from a college baseball game and I looked at him and started laughing and said "In 5 days I am going to stand on stage in a BIKINI!" "I am a working mother of two kids who was miserable in my body for 12 years and started a diet at least every other Monday and NOW I am about to stand on stage in a bikini." REALLY? Is this really me? I just can't wrap my mind around it. I know I have prepped for this for 27 weeks now but as of today it is only 5 days away and it is about to happen. I simply cannot believe it.

My weight dropped to 128.4 yesterday morning and I was in awe. Just never dreamed in my life I would see a number like that. Then I just looked in the mirror at my small somewhat muscular frame and just starred at myself. This is my body. This is ME! It almost feels like a long dream, it really does.

I am so excited for the whole experience and to be able to do this with what I consider true friends who are all so AWESOME and who are achieving their goals and dreams is just so surreal.

I truly am in awe of my accomplishment.

Friday, June 4, 2010

8 days out!! Peak week approaching.

Personal business real quick: TALIA, I got your comment. I am happy to help in anyway I can. Leave me another comment with your e-mail if you want and I will just contact you directly. I won't post your e-mail though to my comments page.

I am only 8 days out from the competition. WHOA!! It is seriously almost here. It will be next Saturday in the blink of an eye.

Oh, BIG NEWS...I broke into the 120's. I am at 129.6. WOOT!! The scale has dropped 2.4 pounds in the last 7 days. CRAZY!! My body finally just gave up from hanging onto it I guess.

So I have made it to the last week of competition prep. YAHOO!! They call this peak weak in the industry. HA!!

It is crazyness, you do a thing called a water deplete. I had no idea how this worked but now I do and I am sure there might be variations of it but here is what I will do:

I currently drink 1 gallon of water a day. Starting Monday through Thursday I will drink 2 gallons of water a day. As of Monday I will have NO more sweetner of any sort, no splenda, no crystal light, no Xtend (it has splenda) and no protein powder b/c it has artificial sweetner in it also. Then as of Thursday and Friday I eat chicken only that is boiled. I eat absolutely NO SODIUM whatsoever. Then Friday I drink 1 gallon of water up until 8pm then I quit drinking and the only thing I drink in a 24 hour period from 8 Friday night until after the comp Saturday night is 10 oz. of coffee for lunch on Saturday.

So basically I am dehydrated come Saturday for the show and I am just sucked dry as you might put it. My trainer says that not all bikini copetitors do this b/c it isn't always necessary and it was up to me if I wanted to do it or not. I decided to go for it. I want to get the whole experience and since I have come this far I might as well finish with a BANG! I know this will be tough and I am sure I have no idea how tough it will be. I will soon find out though.

The funny thing is that when I was training for the marathon I drank 2 gallons of water on average daily everyday for many many weeks and I purposefully ate lots of sodium b/c when you run long distances the last thing you want is to get dehyrated and cramp up. So you eat a lot of sodium then drink the water and you don't expel the water. It just soaks into your muscles I guess and hangs out for when you need it. What a different experience this will be.

I forgot to tell you that on Friday along with my boring chicken I get PEANUT BUTTER and rice cakes. Thank goodness, I will need something that taste good after a boring week of bland food with not much on it. Oh how I will miss my splenda on my eggs with my cinnamon and on my oatmeal with my cinnamon. It will be good for me though to show myself that I can go without it.


I did take progress pics this morning but I am not posting them. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! You only have to wait 9 more day for the finished product so that won't be bad.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

I made it to the SINGLE DIGITS!!

Only NINE days until I step on the stage for my bikini comp. WOW!!

It cannot get here fast enough either. I am SO READY!!

My scale weight is coming down all of the sudden. I am at 130 flat. I am certain I will see those 120's before all is said and done.

I just cannot believe it is almost here and this goal is almost a reality. It blows my mind that I have actually done this. I wasn't sure I could pull it off when I started this process 26 weeks ago. I thought I might be able to but honestly I was scared to death of the thought of sticking to such a strict eating plan for SO LONG and then doing all of the exercise that is needed. It hasn't been alone that is for sure. I have had support and encouragement all around me (that will be an entirely seperate blog). I am so thankful for that.

Still marking things off my to do list before I leave town. Lots to get done.

Headed to get my teeth cleaned now so I can have some pearly whites.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Weekend get-a-way to the BEACH!

My husband surprised me with a weekend get-a-way to the beach in Gulf Shores, AL. This is a long 11 hour drive for us but it was TOTALLY WORTH IT and I would do it again. We both LOVE the beach and it is so relaxing and beautiful (well now until the oil gets there). We had such a good time together. We enjoy spending time together but often with the hustle and bustle of life you forget that or you don't get to spend hardly anytime along without 1000 things on your to do list. You all know how it is. Anyway, we took some time to ourselves to enjoy life and that is exactly what we did.


I enjoyed wearing a bikini on the beach for the very first time EVER!! I was a little self conscious of it in the beginning but then as I started to look around I realized that although I don't look perfect in my bikini...97% of the other women in their bikini DON'T EITHER!!! The very few that looked really good were teenagers or early to mid 20 year olds. This was a great realization in my mind and I am so glad I figured this out. I embraced my flaws and felt GREAT about my strong body characteristics.

I didn't get very many pics actually and J and I didn't even get one together. BOO. The time went by too fast but it was still worth it.


Here I am on the beach in my BIKINI!!! This is our little area we had set up. The white sand is powdery soft and so beautiful.



Here I am with a close up just enjoying the sites. Oh it was a little piece of heaven.



My beach drink of choice:




Read this book from time to time when I wasn't looking around or closing my eyes getting a little nap.


My view from my beach chair.




The sand between my toes.




My breakfast at the condo. Bought egg whites at the grocery store (with cinnamon and splenda mixed in them, my favorite). Brought pre-made pacs of oatmeal with cinnamon and splenda as well for 3 breakfast mornings. To drink I had water with grape Xtend that I talked about last week.

This is how a bikini competitor does it on the road. My tuna mixed up with some spicy southwestern mustard kept in the cooler in the back. This was actually 2 servings. One for now and one for later.


Sliced cucumbers. YUM!



My single serving of almonds so I don't eat too much.



To top off my great beach trip I weighed in on Friday before I left at a new all time low of 132. Then I decided to weigh this morning just for kicks. Travel almost always shoots up the scale but not this time. It said I was down 1.2 pounds to 130.8. WHOA!!! I could not believe it I guess that is happen when you stick to your food plan and your metabolism is on fire. WOOT! I will take it.