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Friday, August 31, 2007

A long weekend...I need it.

J's team lost last night by one measly poing. 13-12. BUMMER!! I actually didn't get to see the end but maybe that is a good thing. I had to leave at half time b/c Chloe was sick. She had a fever yesterday morning and then it got better then it came back then it got better then at the game she got sick and threw up in the bleachers (poor thing) then I felt of her and she was burning up so we went home early and she went to bed and seems to be a better this morning I just hope it lasts. Lizzie is also suffering from a major cold and tons of snot. Poor thing she can't breathe very good. I slept holding her in the recliner most of the night. I hope they get better before tomorrow when I will be leaving them with J's parents so I can go to the football game. We shall see.

I am looking forward to the long weekend though and having Monday off. It will be NICE. I don't have any major plans so that is nice too. I of course need to do laundry, vacuum and dust and such so maybe I will get that done.

As for eating I decided to do my cheat meal last night b/c my mom made my fave!! Fried chicken, mashed potatoes, biscuits and gravy. IT WAS SO GOOD! I will be on track the rest of the weekend though. I don't have any major plans or events so I should be able to stay on track. I just need to schedule some exercise in there somewhere though. I have been slacking on the exercise front. I have been running some but not lifting weights. That is a good goal for me for the weekend to lift weights at least one of the day. I can do it!!

ok. I have to get off here and get to work. Have a great weekend if I don't make it back here to check in.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

FINALLY FOOTBALL!!!

It is THURSDAY and it is the begining of J's football season!! WOO HOO! GO RAMAY INDIANS! Tonight they play their rival Woodland so we will see how it goes. Me and the girls will be there cheering them on. Then on Saturday we have the first RAZORBACK game. Can't wait to see that either. GO HOGS GO!!! WOO PIG SOOIE!!!

I am not sure that I have mentioned that I am running in a race. A 10K which is 6.5 miles I think. It will be on October 13th. I am in the process for training for it. My friend and I ran on Tuesday night 2 miles. I probably won't be able to run again until Sunday though b/c of other commitments but that is o.k. I am just going to prepare as much as I can and do the best I can and if I need to walk a few minutes here and there then that is perfectly fine. I will cross the finish line one way or the other I don't guess it matters how I get there. I am very excited about it though. After I had Lizzie that was my goal to do this 10K and then I kind of backed away from it but now I AM DOING IT!! So glad I decided too, I just love running.

My eating has been really good. So even though I have not been able to exercise as much as I want I am still making progress b/c of my eating. Remember that even though exercises is SO IMPORTANT and you NEED TO DO IT, eating clean and healthy is 80% of the battle and exercise is 20%. Eating good clean healthy foods is what will widdle our waist line, it makes a huge difference over eating processed foods. I can not say that LOUD ENOUGH!!

o.k., well I have to go for now and get some work done. Have a great Thursday and hopefully I will be back with a winning report from the game tomorrow. --Dawn

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

I AM LEAVING MY HUSBAND...

for DIERKS BENTLEY! Seriously, he better be on his best behavior or that is it, I am moving to TN and kicking out Dierks beautiful wife and then you can just call me DAWN BENTLEY... sounds good doesn't it. He is my new favorite. I am and will always be a huge Kenny Chesney fan but there is something about that Dierks that just draws me in. I actually saw him at the end of April here in town and I had very close seats, they actually called it "the pit" and I was literally right next to the stage. This time around this past Friday I was much much further away so I just enjoyed the music instead of the scenery. I will share some of the pics from the April concert for your viewing pleasure.






Those are the best ones. I might have a few others to bless my blog with at a later time.
As for my eating and exercising. I am doing really good with the eating. In fact, I might need to post another menu since I haven't done that in a while. I will try to get to that tomorrow. I have not been getting up in the morning to exercise and my excuse is my darling daughter is no longer sleeping well. I really just need to get up and do it anyway even if if it is 30 minutes. Surely, I need the exercise more than I need just 30 minutes of sleep. I need to try to go to bed just 30 minutes early then that will take care of that. I am planning on jogging tonight again with my friend Tara. We jogged on Sunday around this trail that was 2 miles and we did it 2 times. We jogged / walked and had a pretty good time of 50 minutes so we were proud of that. Plus, it has some hills so our booties and backs of our legs were feeling it as we walked up those hills.
I did have a proud eating experience last night at a work event that I went to. You know those things they always have the good fattening junky food at them. Well, I decided I was going to eat something so I had 5 cocktail shrimps (w/ no cocktail sauce), 5 pieces of sushi and 2 strawberries. No dessert and no dips or crackers or chips. YEAH!!! I was so proud of myself. Those events are so hard for me b/c I really like that junky crap they feed you. But, I made some good choices and left there feeling great about myself.







Monday, August 27, 2007

Good evening

This is going to be quick. I realized the day has almost gone by and I hadn't posted. I will have to fill you on the details of my weekend and especially my visit to see Dierks Bentley tomorrow but I wanted to just post quickly that DIERKS BENTLEY IS ONE SEXY MAN!!

Anyway, my sister called me this morning at 7:00 to tell me that she had gotten up at 6:30 and walked on the treadmill. WOOT WOOT GO VELVET GO!!! So proud of her. So proud of you making it a priority and getting it done for the day then you don't have to worry about it the rest of the day. Plus, I think when you are able to exercise in the AM it really helps you through the day make good food choices b/c you think about what you eat before you put it in your mouth. You don't want to blow your hard work of getting up early and exercising. At least that is how I feel about it. I mean you could have been in bed but instead you were doing your body good and burning some fat! Great job Velvet, do it again tomorrow!!!

Well, I have to go in and make some dinner. I had an event after work then had to go get groceries now I am home putting them up and I have a hungry hubby and daughter waiting on some food. Luckily, I bought one of those already made rotisserie chickens at wal-mart so I just need to steam some broccoli and make a salad and we will be good to go.

Bye for now, until tomorrow. EXERCISE AND EAT CLEAN!
Dawn

Friday, August 24, 2007

DIERKS BENTLEY HERE I COME!!!

Well of course J had to spend our anniversary at a football game but tonight we are making up for it and going to see Dierks Bentley and Cross Canadian Ragweed in concert. WOOT WOOT!! I can't wait!!!

I finally was able to jog last night. My good friend Tara and her husband came over around 7:15 and Tara and I each grabbed a stroller and headed out. Steve ran ahead of us and then lapped us but I think it was b/c he wasn't pusing a stroller. HAHA Tara and I went 2 miles jogging 1.25 of it and walking .75. It felt GREAT! I just love the feeling of accomplishment that I get after a run is over.

My darling Lizzie slept all night last night. YEAH! Maybe she just didn't feel good the 2 nights before. I am not sure what it was but I am hoping it is over for a little while and she will be back on her angel sleeping schedule. She has me spoiled.

I have a plan for food for today, b-fast was fiber one, banana and milk and then some prot. powder in the leftover milk for a little more protein. Lunch will be south beach diet pizza, cucumber, avocado and tomato. Dinner will be on the road but I can get a decent salad or grilled chicken sand. at most places. So today should be good. I will take my cooler with me for our road trip and some water so that if I get hungry I don't have to eat convenient store food. As for Sat. and Sun. we don't have any major plans except a birthday party for Chloe's friend on Saturday morning but I will eat before I go so that I won't be tempted to pass up the cake. I hope to exercise on Saturday and do another run with Tara on Sunday.

It is Friday, make sure you have YOUR weekend planned with your food and exercise.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

OUR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!

4 years today we have been married. Wow, I told J that sometimes it feels like it was yesterday and sometimes it feels like it was 10 years ago...he agreed with a smile. For a celebration we are going to near Springfield, MO to see Dierks Bentley and Cross Canadian Ragweed (a band from OK that plays in Fay at George's sometimes). Anyway, we can't wait. We have been wanting to see this concert ever since they have been touring we just couldn't find it close enough during a time that we could go.

As far as the luncheon went yesterday, I did pretty good. I ate several different things but not too much of the bad stuff. I got right back on track though with watermelon for my afternoon snack and then I had a good dinner.

I have not exercised since Monday of this week. Darling Lizzie has taken a turn for the worse in the sleeping department and has kept me up a lot the past two nights. Then during the evenings I have had other obligations and have not been able to get it in. Tonight I have plans to run with a friend and push the girls so hopefully that will work out.

I am gearing up for the weekend and trying to figure out my plan for eating and exercising. Do you have a plan? If not get to thinking about it so you have no excuses for not eating well or exercising.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Hump day AGAIN!

Can't believe it is already Wednesday. I had big plans to get up and go to the gym at 5:30 this am. But my sweet little Lizzie just didn't cooperate. She had her 4 month shots on Monday and she did not feel good all day yesterday or last night. I had to hold her all night long either in the recliner or in bed where I was able to lay for the majority of the night. I have said before she is an angel sleeper 90% of the time so when she doesn't it really affects me. She woke up and wanted to eat at midnight and at 3:30 so there was no way I could get up when my alarm went off at 5. That is o.k. though, I just might get in a quick jog after our financial class tonight (www.daveramsey.com) or I will get up and do it in the morning. I am just taking this one day at a time and trying not to put too much pressure on myself. Obviously, it is out of my control when my baby wakes up and I have to have my sleep to function.

As for my eating I have been doing really good with that and I am so proud. Today at work I have a potluck for lunch so I will just have CONTROL and eat what we have. As long as I don't scarf things down as if I am never going to eat again then I will be fine. I will try to fill up my plate with as many veggies and fruits as I can and have just a little bit of the other stuff. I CAN DO IT!! CONTORL CONTROL CONTROL!!

o.k., I have to go for now and get some work done. Maybe I will post later and let you know how the lunch went.

Monday, August 20, 2007

First day of school!

Well today was the first day of school for Chloe. She just be-bobbed in with her big ol' back pack and sat right down in class and told me "bye" without a second thought. She was just the cutest thing. On another note, Lizzie had her 4 month check up today and she was 13 pounds 8 oz. and 24 1/4 inches long. The Dr. said she was "perfect" but of course we already knew that. Also, we got her ears pierced yesterday, she looks so sweet and girly. We did that with Chloe as well and it went really well so we are hoping the same for Lizzie.

As far as my weekend goes, I had a GREAT one. The yard sale went well and then I had a wedding shower and a bachlorette party for a friend and we had an AWESOME time. I did so great with my eating, I was just so proud. I ate nuts and fruit at the shower and then I had one helping of potato salad, baked beans and bbq brisket with no bread at the b-party. I had major control which is something that I am working on and I succeeded.

As you might remember I took last week off from exercise b/c of my busy schedule. I got right back to it this morning. It felt so good, I was shocked really b/c I typically don't workout on Mondays just b/c it is Mondays and I usually can't get going. Well, I did it anyway. I got up at 5:45 and went out to the garage and did my leg workout. My hamstrings are burning as we speak. Tomorrow my plan is to jog.

I better get off here so I can do a few things and hit the sack. Have a good night ---Dawn

Friday, August 17, 2007

ONIF!!! OH NO, IT'S FRIDAY!

This is my new saying instead of TGIF. A girl that uses the same on-line trainer that I use used that phrase this morning and I though it was so fitting. Because if you are like me then eating on weekends is almost torture compared to during the week when you are on a regular schedule. It is just harder to get in your workouts, water, and make sure you eat regularly and eat your snacks as well. Usually there is so much going on and so many special events to attend. One of the best ways to battle this is to have "A PLAN". For example here is mine for my weekend:

Friday night - not hard b/c I will be at home and everything will be normal. I am thinking about eating my flatout bread pizza that I make. I must share this with you later, it is so good. And of course I have to eat some veggies so probably some steamed broccoli and a cucumber.

Saturday - busy busy day - this will be my carry my cooler day - yard sale in the morning at a friends house. I won't eat before I go b/c I have to be there at 5:30 so I will take a banana and and a protein bar to eat around 8 or so. Then I will take an apple for a snack and then I will take some carrots along just in case I need another snack. I will be sure to keep my water cup filled up so that I am drinking my water throughout the morning. I should be home just after lunch hopefully so I will eat a turkey wrap most likely and some strawberries and some cucs. Sat. afternoon I have a wedding shower at 4:30 so I will have already eaten my afternoon snack and I will take some carrots along with me in case I feel that I need to snack on something. I will go into the shower with a "no cake" and " no sweets" policy for me. I can choose from other things in moderation. I think we are going out to dinner so I can just make a healthy choice at that time.

Sunday - this day should not be too hard b/c I will be at home most of the day. I just have to make myself drink my water and also eat my 3 meals and my 2 snacks!

I can do this, I have a plan and I am going to stick to it. My cooler will be my saving grace for Saturday. I just have to pack it with some healthy snacks so I have NO EXCUSES.

As for bunco, it went really well. We had a great time, there were 8 of us and I did great on the food. The food was a hit and I did not over do it. I maintained control and that is such a great feeling. See, I know I can do it when I really want too.

You can do it too, get a good attitude and a controlled mindset and head into the weekend. Oh, and make sure you get in some exercise!!!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

BUNKO DAY!!

It is finally Thursday and I have bunko at my house tonight with some girlfriends, I am really looking forward to it. The house is clean, the flowers are weeded and the yard is NOT mowed but I hope to do that really quick this afternoon.
On the menu tonight is:

1) veggie tray w/ sour cream and ranch dip (light sour cream so not too many calories per serving)
2) cheese ball w/ cream cheese, ham and green onion (the cream ch. is half fat free and half light so not too bad on calories there either) - of course the crackers that go with it are not great, they are 13 for 130 calories but their nutritional value is lacking.
3) chocolate chip cheese ball -this is not at all healthy or low in calorie, it is so good though and served with graham crackers.
4) phyllo dough crab cups - these aren't too bad actually b/c it just has phyllo dough cups, with crab meat and cream cheese and green onions in them. they are SO YUMMY!
5) lemon cake made w/ diet sprite and fat free cool whip icing - all you do with this is buy a lemon cake mix and add 2 cups of diet sprite and mix and bake according to directions. Then ice with fat free cool whip. You do not use any of the eggs or oil in it and plus you don't use icing so this cuts back on calories dramatically. I am going to calculate the calories tonight so I will let you know exactly. you can also do it with chocolate cake and diet coke or diet dr. pepper. so if you use a light colored cake then use diet sprite or 7-up and if you do a dark cake use the dark diet drinks.

So that is it. Those 5 things. A few healthy or somewhat healthy things and then a couple not so good for you things but they will ALL BE GOOD!! This is a time where I really have to have some control and just not eat my weight in the chocolate chip cheese ball. I love this thing. I am thinking that I might not eat any of it. If I think I can limit myself to a small serving then I will have it but if I am afraid that I will just eat and eat and eat then I am just going to pass it up completely. I mean I would live without it, RIGHT? It is not as if I am never ever going to eat it again and my body won't quit on me just b/c I don't have it, in fact my body would be better off if I didn't have it, that is what I have to keep telling myself.

o.k., I am off to eat my lunch, south beach diet pizza, cucumber, avocado and a tomato.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

It's HUMP DAY!!

Happy Wednesday to all of you. I can't chat long b/c I am busy at work. I just wanted to say that I have marked another thing off my to do list for the week. I actually got up at 5:20 and weeded my flower beds. My darling mom came out to help me (she is a gardner so she loves this stuff). Anyway, I had to get it ready for my bunco game on Thursday. I was out side in the dark with my front porch light on weeding. It looks good though. It is not perfect but perfect enough for me. It had kind of gotten away from me.

Last night I loaded up the truck with my yard sale stuff and I am headed to my friends house tonight to unload it all and price it. We are having a major yard sale pricing party with the 5 people that are participating in the yard sale tonight. Then after I get home my dad is coming with me to watch the girls while I mow. I have to do this b/c my darling husband is working late every night this week and you can't really mow the yard at 9:30 at night. I guess you could but it wouldn't look very good. So I will do it this week, I don't mind though. Then after I get the kids to bed I have to make the 2 cheese balls for bunco.

I am still eating good, I had grilled chicken last night and some squash on the grill and 1/2 a cucumber. It was really good. I love good for you food thank goodness.

o.k. I am off to get my work done. Until tomorrow --- Dawn

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Good Morning Velvet!

Hi Velvet (my sister), she reads my blog daily and she told me last night on the phone that she is disappointed when I don't post b/c she doesn't know what is going on with me or she needs some inspiration to eat good and exercise so I thought I would just start off by telling her "HELLO and I LOVE YOU".

Exercise - lets talk about it for a minute. This week is such a busy one for me, I mean WAY more busy than usual. Like I have said before the only time I can exercise is in the mornings and when I am busy busy in the evenings and then I don't get to bed until 10:30 or after I am simply not able to get up at 5:00 to exercise. I require at least 6-7 hours of good sleep to function and falling asleep around 11 and getting up at 5 anything just doesn't cut it for me. Yes, it might seem like I am making excuses but I am not, the facts are the facts and when you are busier than usual than you just have to make adjustments. So, I have decided to take this week off of exercising and I am not going to feel guilty about it. I am continuing to eat good though and logging my food so I am not falling off the wagon by any means, I am just realizing that exercise is not fitting into my schedule this week and it is o.k. I am already working really hard cleaning my house to get ready for bunco (I mean it needs to be cleaned anyway, this is just a good excuse to get it really clean) and preparing for a yard sale and then my outing with friends on Saturday afternoon. It is not like I am sitting at home on the couch or something. Anyway, my point is that you have to do what is best for you in your life on any given day and if you are honestly able to exercise everyday or 5-6 days a week or even 1 or 2 then you need to get out there and do it. If you are honestly too busy one week then just accept it and move on and don't feel bad about it. I will get back to it next week for sure I am already planning my workout schedule for then.

Bye Velvet, have a good day!

Monday, August 13, 2007

It's Monday and the beginning of a busy week!

What a great productive weekend. J powerwashed the house 3/4 of it anyway. Only one side left to do, of course it the toughtest side. The north side with the most mildew and mold on it. This stuff just sticks to the siding. UGH. You should see the rest of the house though. It looks good! I spent yesterday doing laundry (never ending) and dusting and just putting things away. I also went through the girls things to get the final items for my yardsale that I am participating in this weekend. Tonight my plan is to vacuum and clean the bathrooms, tomorrow night I have to price things for the yard sale and then on Wednesday I have my Dave Ramsey class and I will deliver items to the yard sale location and then Thursday night is Bunco at my house and then Friday I will finish up yard sale pricing then Saturday morning I have to leave my house around 4:45 AM to get set up for the yard sale then Saturday afternoon I have a wedding shower and that night I have a bachlorette party. It just wears me out thinking about all of this. In between all of that I have kids to take care of, a husband to fend for, and exercise to do and and sleep. I am sure the week will go by fast as it always does so it will be over soon.

As for this past weekend with exercise and eating. I got up and exercised (did weights) in the garage at 7 on Saturday morning, YEAH!! So that was a great start to my day. I had a good b-fast and lunch was a chef salad with ranch on the side. I often eat vinegar and oil but occasionaly I will indulge in ranch. I dip my fork in it and then put it in the salad so I don't use as much. That really cuts down on the amount. I did share a dessert with some friends but I did'nt eat much and it was a controlled portion so that was nice. Dinner was good with steak, potatoes and veggies on the grill. Sunday went well, no exercise, b-fast was good, lunch was good and then dinner was my cheat meal with creamy tacos and cake at my parents house. So all in all I was really proud of my weekend.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

2 days in a row!

That is 2 days in a row getting up early before work to exercise. As you saw from my Tuesday blog things didn't go as planned for Tuesday morning but all was well Weds. and Thurs. morning. I did my strength workout in my garage with weights and a step bench and mat on Wednesday morning then this morning I did jog/walk intervals outside. I will tell you this if you didn't know that IT IS HOT! Even in the mornings at 5:30 it is hot, but I do it anyway, it is obviuosly cooler at 5:30 am than it is at 5:30 pm. It just feels so good to get the workouts over with for the day then I just don't have to worry about it. I always recommend to people to get up and get it over with so nothing gets in the way of your exercise time. Of course, you have to do what works for you.

Eating is going so well this week. I have stayed on program all week with no straying. I have been so proud. Now, I am going into the weekend with a good solid plan. I have to have my weekends planned out b/c it is so easy to get of course when you are not on a regular schedule like I am during the weeks. It is easy to not eat every 2-3 hours or to not get in all of the water or to over indulge at a family get together or out to eat or an outing with friends. I will be straying a little on Sunday at my parents house by eating creamy tacos but I plan to just eat them in moderation. I can do it!

It is Thursday afternoon so get your plan together for the weekend so you don't stray off your path. Make a plan, write it down and stick to it and you will be so glad you did come Monday morning when you feel great about yourself and the scale is down.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Just b/c it is in "the plan" doesn't mean it always works out

I have realized that I am not always able or always want to workout on the weekends and I am not a good Monday exerciser. So I realized that I need to workout Tuesday through Friday in the mornings before work and then if I am able to exercise on Saturday or Sunday then great and if not then it is o.k. too. Anyway, I had planned to get up this morning to start my week off right and of course Lizzie did not cooperate. My angel sleeper is not 100% the angel sleeper as no one is. Apparently, she slept a lot yesterday so she stared at me and grinned until after 11 last night then she woke up at 4 bright eyed and I had to feed her. Therefore, there is no way I was able to get up at 5:15. So no harm no foul...I will either workout tonight or that means that I will just have to work out on Saturday and Sunday if I want to get in my goal of 5 days. The best thing about it though is that I don't feel bad or guilty, that is just life. Although, you do have to make time for exercise I have to remember that for me my family comes first and if things don't workout how I planned them then it IS O.K.!!!

As for my past weekend I was really proud. I did not have any crazy cheat meal but I did have 2 controlled splurges I like to call them. I went to a wedding shower and I had control, it was a great thing. I ate a plate full of fruit and 2 phyllo dough crab stuffed things and 2 small lemon tarts. That is it, no more. I typically just stuff my face in these situations but I did not do that this time. Then Saturday night we went to noodles and I had the side salad and then chicken and mushrooms with no pasta and only 2 small pieces of bread. That is it, not 2 loaves of bread or a huge pasta dish. I was very proud of myself. I was completely satisfied at both places and I proved to myself that I CAN BE IN CONTROL OF MY EATING! What a great feeling!

Friday, August 3, 2007

It is FRIDAY!

As happy as I am that it is Friday I am disappointed at how fast the weeks go by. Of course, I always look forward to the weekends b/c I can spend time with my family but the time is just going by entirely too fast. Lizzie turned 4 months on August 1st and Chloe will be 3 in about 1 1/2 months. I simply can't believe it and I wonder where the time has gone. SLOW DOWN TIME!

Anyway, I had a great week, I exercised early at 5:30 3 mornings this week. YEAH!! I plan to exercise, on Saturday and Sunday. I am going to do jogging intervals, like I jog really fast for 1-3 minutes then walk a good steady pace for 1-3 minutes and then repeat. My trainer said that is better for FAT BURNING and since my goal is to burn fat that is what I am going to do. I did this last Saturday b/c I was having a hard time going at a steady pace but this ended up being harder actually. I got A LOT more winded.

I have had a pretty good eating week. The only problem I had was on Tuesday night with the chips and dip at my bunko game. Besides that, I have been right on target.

I don't have anything thoughtful to say today or a problem to discuss. I am just so dang proud that I got in my exercise 3 days this week in the morning. It was a STRUGGLE to get out of bed I tell you. My hubby has to give me a nudge but it is a nice nudge and plus, I ask him too help me and he does. It works and I put my feet on the floor so that is all that matters.

When you are eating this weekend and making your choices just think about how you want to look and feel and make sure it is worth it. If not then just pass it by and don't give it a second thought. Also, get out there and sweat in this heat and humidity, it won't be very hard. Get that heart rate pumping and burn those calories.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Just when you think you get it...

o.k. here is my story...last Friday I went to lunch w/ some friends at a mexican place. I had decided before I went that I was not going to eat at all, especially the chips. I ate a snack before I went then I had a nice lunch in the fridge waiting on me for when I got back to work. I had the perfect mind set and I succeded. I did not eat anything not even one little chip. I sat there and drank my water with the basket of chips in front of me and didn't even touch them at all. You say "WOW, Dawn that is so GREAT" I was so proud of myself when I left there. So comes last night with girls night out at a friends house to play bunko and I was not sure what type of food they would have but I had told myself to be strong and either eat a minimal amount of whatever they had or to not eat at all. I did have an apple and a nectarine in the car and that actually stayed in the car (mistake #1). Anyway, I went in and of course they had chips and 3-4 different dips and I dove in like I had never eaten before. I just couldn't step away. WHY OH WHY could I not step away? I DO NOT KNOW! I did not just eat my weight in them, I think I actually had 25 chips. I did count them but I should have had none. I am sure people think well you can have a treat every now and then it is o.k. Well, in my world it is not o.k., yes I allow myself treats but I also have to learn to maintain control and I did not do that. I am one of these all of nothing kind of people. If I can't eat all the chips I want then usually I would prefer to have none. I even passed up the oreos (on the platter right next to where I sat at one point) and brownies AND ice cream cake (and I love ice cream). So how did I pass those yummy things up but eat the chip and dip? The actual meal was fine, I had taco salad w/ no chips, lettuce, meat, a little cheese, a little sour cream, and tomatoes. So that was o.k. and within my guidelines but the chips and dip are not. So as long as I learn from my mistake and I do not do this again then I consider myself o.k. I would have been completely satisfied with myself if I would have not had the chips and dip and just eaten the taco salad, that would have been perfect. I can usually do o.k. with the meal portions it is the snacking before hand that gets me.

Here is what I will do next time:

1) eat a snack before I go
2) take in a bag of carrots so that I can have those in my hand and in my mouth, take in an apple and a nectarine and beef jerky or almonds or anything if I have to keep my hands and my mouth busy.
3) sit in the living room if I have to and DO NOT hover in the kitchen (this is key)
4) find out exactly what they are having ahead of time so I can say I will not eat XXX and XXX. I do better this way for some reason.

I will start with these tips, see I know them I just didn't follow through with them. UGH!!

This month the gathering is at my house so I will have control over what we have there. I plan to have mostly healthy choices but some of the people specifically request fattening things, I will just keep them to a minnimum. I can triumph over this. I WILL I WILL!!