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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

It's almost here. 1 1/2 more days.

Oh man, we are so excited for Christmas to be here. Chloe and Lizzie can't wait to open presents and neither can I for that matter. My lovely husband is really good at picking out gifts for me and he loves to buy me presents especially since I rarely by myself anything. I think he went WAY over our budget this year. I only went slightly over budget with him b/c remember he has that fancy boat in the drive way that is his Christmas gift for eternity.

We have a local square that is decorated in tons of lights and we go there every year to get pictures. Here are some from this year. It was REALLY cold the night we went.

Plus, if I don't get on here again before Christmas I hope my blogger family and all those that read my blog have a blessed Christmas. Enjoy your time with your family and take time to remember those that aren't able to share it with you this year and hug those that are. I will be remembering my cousin, Sabrina and my Granny. Oh how I miss them.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Moving on DOWN!

The scale continues to show me some love and I was down 1.4 pounds this week for a total of 6.4 pounds in 3 weeks. WOOT!! The scale read 143.6. OH YEA!!

I can't believe I am in the low 140's. WOW!! I can't wait to get to 1-4-0 exactly. That has been the magic number in my head for a while now and I just want to see it. I am inching closer and closer as the days go by.

The consistent exercise and the consitent clean food with NO cheats or bites or licks or anything is totally paying off and I am loving it.

I was told by my trainer, Tim, at Structure Fitness that I could have a cheat meal on Christmas. Well as much as I want to I decided that I would rather have it the day after Christmas when we get together with J's Grandpa for Christmas. At that meal we have the appetizer type food that I really like. Cheese balls, smokies, and I am making rotel/cheese dip. OH YUM!! I can taste it now. So if I am going to get 1 cheat meal in the month of December then I want it to be GOOD and something that is totally worth it and something that I love.

Christmas is 5 days a week and I am thrilled. My girls are so excited and that just makes me smile. Every day Lizzie says, "we open presents, it's Christmas". She thinks it should be here now and of course has no sense of time and what 5 days is. Chloe knows that Santa will be coming very soon and she is so excited about it.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Day by day

Day by day they say, well Corinne and Becca say. They both told me the same thing about my exercise and eating. You really have to take it one day at a time. Do what you know you need to do as far as exercise goes and what you put in your mouth each day and then get up and do it all over again.

This is TOUGH. I can tell you that this will be the hardest thing I have done in my life to this point as far as challenging and really pushing my limits. Of course being a parent is probably the hardest but most enjoyable thing I have done. But 2nd to parenting a competition is at the top.

I am going strong right now and I am having a great week and I have had 2 good weeks prior to this but then I get to thinking I have to do this for SIX MONTHS PEOPLE!! SIX MONTHS!!!!!! That is A LONG TIME!!! I have to eat a very tight diet and at this current time I exercise 5 days a week and that is if I get in all 5 cardios and strength workouts in the same day. If I don't then it is 6 days at least. Then there will come a time that I will HAVE to exercise 6 days a week and eventually SEVEN. I am wondering now how I will do that. Can we say OVERWHELMING!

So the above paragraph is exactly why Corinne and Becca STRESS to me that it is DAY TO DAY!! Don't think ahead just think NOW! TODAY!!

O.k. I have learned over time to trust those that have gone before me so I will do just that. Day to day, day to day, day to day. I keep saying this over and over in my head.


Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Christmas cookies galore!!!

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!! I always have but it is even more fun now that I have small children. You really see the joy in their faces with everything associated with Christmas. It just makes you smile.

My MIL is a baker and she has this awesome recipe from past generations of sugar/shortbread cookies and they are SO GOOD!! Since we had Chloe she has come down to our house and they make Christmas cookies together and now that Lizzie is here of course she partcipates too. Here is a sampling of what they made.

Just for the record I didn't even sample one. I had a conversation with myself though discussing the issue every time I passed them in the kitchen. Luckily my will power won. I can have them next Christmas if I so choose, right. To be honest even if I wasn't preparing for a competition I would have to think twice about eating one only b/c I don't have much control when it comes to those types of foods. I just want to eat 10 - 15 literally. I rarely can get by with eating just 1-3 so sometimes it is best that I have none.

These were just part of them...YES there were MORE!
Up close Christmas cookies. I helped ice most of these. That was pretty fun. I am not a big icing fan so this wasn't too tempting.

Yes, I let me kids eat cookies for breakfast. Only on very special occasions though.

Lizzie showing off her snowman cookie.

Chloe and her Christmas tree cookie.

I like the plain ones. Here they are in the ziploc bag.

I wanted to tip this bag up and devour them...but I didn't.

This candy cane cookie in the fridge belongs to Lizzie. She was eating it and she came and told me "I save it for later" (I wasn't sure where she had put it though). A few minutes past and I looked in the fridge and she had put it in there to "save for later". HA
Our Christmas tree.
We have LOTS of ornaments and almost all of them have a story behind them or when we got them or who got them for us.

Up close of some of our ornaments.

Monday, December 14, 2009

The date is SET and I have a plan.

JUNE 12th it is!!! That is the day that I will stand on stage in a bikini of some sort (yet to be determined) with the goal of looking like I belong in my very first bikini competition. WHOA!!! To write that, read it and say it out loud just blows me away. I am doing it though (since I have committed my husband is cancelling an annual golf tournament that he does that weekend so there is no going back now). I am going to give it everything I have and see where I end up on June 12, 2010.

I have to admit that I am scared to death. Mostly scared of the un-known and if I can truly do it. I want to, I say I can, I mostly believe I can (at least I fake it for now) and I have the tools to do so. Now I have to put all of that into action.

June 12th is 26 weeks from now, a couple days shy actually. 26 weeks seems like an eternity really but when you have layers of fat to lose it isn't at all.

I was seeing a personal trainer here in my town and I LOVED that. I did it for 4 sessions and it was very valuable. I learned a lot during those 4 sessions but I realized it wasn't for me for the longterm. I am well into my journey and the PT sessions were a reminder of how hard I can push myself and I got some great ideas for workouts but for now I can put that money to other things. I HIGHLY recommend getting a PT though if you need direction, encouragement, knowledge and a push. It was well worth the money.

After much thought and consideration I decided to go a different route for my training and that is through Structure Fit. I followed along with Jessica at Amaze Yourself as she was training for her very first bikini competition and I was mesmerized. For myself I need a very structured plan (appropriately named) and went for it. I just finished my 2nd full week of working with them and I am down 5 pounds and not sure how many inches. I will measure and let you know. I started 2 weeks ago at 150 and now weigh 145. I have no idea what my end weight will be or what it should be. I am 5'3" so I am thinking between 115 and 125 but that really is a wild guess b/c I have no idea what my body is going to look like now at even 140 pounds or 135.

I am still with my beloved Phit-N-Phat, with out them I would not be where I am today. The women there provide me with so much encouragement and knowledge that you cannot imagine. Corinne shares the wealth with anything she learns or knows from personal experience and for that I am greatful. I will actually be doing this competition in Chattanooga, TN with several other Phit-N-Phaters. What an experience it is going to be.

WOW! I can't believe I am doing this.

Stay tuned for how I make it through the next 26 weeks and watch the transformation as I melt the fat. I hope I prove to you and myself that it can be done if you want it bad enough.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I get a "high" when...

I get ORGANIZED!!!! I took a day off yesterday to organize my kids rooms, clothes and toys. It needed it desperately and mostly my sanity needed it. I feel SO MUCH BETTER NOW!! I stared at their closets last night AND this morning and just smiled knowing what my Mom and I had done. I am NOT a pack rat at all, I love to get rid of things I don't need. I needed time to do it though and that doesn't come as plentiful as I would like. I took off work so that I could do it while the girls were at school and my Mom was able to help me. The project was too overwhelming to do alone. THANK GOD FOR MY MOM!!!

We organized and threw out and took some toys to the re-sale shop. I went through clothes after clothes and we ironed and hung up a crazy amount that I will put in a consignment sale that is huge that is in my area. That is in March. It is a process getting things ready for it though.

I feel SO GOOD knowing this is done before Christmas and now when the girls get more clothes and toys then we will have room for them and a spot to store them. YEA!!

Food and exercise are still going strong. I will face another challenge tomorrow at lunch at our annual office luncheon. I will prefail though!

Oh and last night I went Christmas shopping and while there I tried on a shirt to give my Mom an idea of something I might want for Christmas and guess what size it was...a SMALL!!! Yes, I tried on a SMALL in a shirt and it fit. WHOA!!! I think I was 10 the last time I wore anything that said "small" on the tag. That is Christmas enough for me but I really did like the shirt. Maybe I will get it and I can sport around my SMALL shirt and to top it off, it was a Razorback shirt. It really doesn't get better than a SMALL RAZORBACK shirt! GO HOGS!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Passed it up

So we had MEXICAN of all things at my Christmas luncheon today for work and I totally passed it up!! WOOT!! It did look good but not worth sacrificing my momentum I have going now. NOT WORTH IT!! I can have it at a later date if I want to but just not right now. I am on a roll and mexican food isn't getting in my way.

I have another challenge this coming Friday with yet another work Christmas luncheon and it is at a very good italian place. I can pass it up though, if I passed up the mexican then I can pass this up too. It will be a little bit more of a discussion in my head though b/c this food is GOOD! Yet, still not worth sacrificing my momentum.

I am 2/2 on the workouts this week also so I am going strong in that department. I plan in getting in 5 days at least and maybe 6 depending on what I get done in these 6 days.

BIGGEST LOSER FINALE is tonight. I can't wait!!! LOVE THAT SHOW!! I am always in such amazement at how they transform themselves and I can't wait to see them. I am really pulilng for Danny. My husband and I decided that he is our all time favorite contestant. He just totally "gets it" and I love that. He has truly transformed his life and you can tell by the way he talks about himself and talks about his new lifestyle. I LOVE IT!!!

Monday, December 7, 2009

I broke through...

I finally after 8 weeks of staying between 148 and 150 on the scale I broke through my plateau and registered on Sunday morning at a very sweet looking 146.8. WOOT WOOT!!! I was just hoping to see 147.8 at some point in the near future and I seem to have passed by the 147's onto the 146's. SWEET!!! I will take it.

On Monday morning, November 30th I weighed in at 150 and on Sunday, December 6th I weighed in at 146.8. I have NEVER had a jump in the scale that much that I recall. It was a nice sight to see.

Considering I have THREE Christmas events this week this could not have come at a better time to help me keep my mind strong and my resolve to make December a DROP THE FAT month.

My first challenge of the week comes Tuesday (tomorrow) at a work luncheon. They are serving On the Border mexican. SERIOUSLY? YES! I love mexican but I will do without it this time. It is not as if I can't ever have it again but not right now. I will take my own food, not sure yet what, maybe tuna patties, they are my stand by that I like and easy to transport and don't require heating. My goals will not be overtaken by a catered mexican food lunch!!!

Friday, December 4, 2009

Going strong, quick check in.

I am cruising along and have stuck to my food plan and exercise plan except for this morning when I got to the gym and waited 15 minutes and the person that usually opens it did not show up, which is odd, I hope he is o.k.

No big plans for the weekend for me. I will do 1 more cardio session and do strength training for my back and arms. My food will continue to stay on plan.

I do plan to watch the SEC championship game between Florida and Alabama. This is going to be a good one I hope. I love close games.

Chloe and I are getting our hair trimmed too on Saturday and we need it!

Sunday, my Mom and I are going to a Christmas tour of homes here in our town. I am really looking forward to that.

Here is to a eating healthy and exercising this weekend. Have a good one!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

My husbands perspective

Last night J was telling me about another party we will be attending with some of his friends and then we were talking about our Christmas plans with our families and such. I told him I am totally on board with whatever people want to eat b/c I will be bringing my own food with me but enjoying the company. Thankfully he is so supportive of this and never gives me a hard time about it. He just expects me now to bring my soft side cooler and snacks every where I go.

I was telling him how tough I thought the month of December was going to be with all of the parties and gatherings and then he said, "You can do it, you don't even like food." HA I started laughing. I said "you think I don't even like food?" he said "yea, this won't be hard for you." We were both laughing and I said "well I will take that as a compliment, I think."

I told him, you never would have said that about me if you saw me back in the day eating out of a tube of chocolate chip cookie dough and eating 3 big bowls of fruity pebbles in one evening.

I thought his perspective was so interesting. I reminded him that I TOTALLY like food but that I TOTALLY 1000 times more like the way I feel and look and those feelings most of the time win out over the food. It is all about a choice and finally in my life I choose the better way when it comes to food, but trust me when I say this has not always been my way which is probably why I am so aware of what I eat now. In fact the majority of my life I was on the other side of the fence hoping to make it to the other side and finally...I did.

Monday, November 30, 2009


Well Thanksgiving is over with...craziness, can't believe it is the last day of November. We had such a nice 4 day weekend, visiting my family and J's family and taking drives on the back roads looking for deer, shopping, vegging, watching football, cleaning the house, putting up Christmas decorations and decorating the tree. GOOD TIMES HAD BY ALL!!!

The food was pretty good on my part. I enjoyed some carbs on Thanksgiving day and some desserts too and then had a few treats on Friday night at another family gathering but overall I did well and I never stuffed myself sick although I wanted to with J's Uncle's peanut brittle. I somehow refrained. I LOVE THAT STUFF!! I had actually forgotten about it unti I saw the ziplock bag full of it at his Grandma's house on Thursday. I wanted to devour the whole bag. I am not sure how I didn't really.

I am totally back on track though and still ready to make this bikini competition a reality. I really want to do this. I want to stand on that stage FOR ME and prove to myself that what you think is impossible really isn't with some hard work and dedication. I hope along the way I can inspire my friends and family and show them you can once be over 200 pounds and have 2 children and still achieve a goal like this (if this is something you want for yourself). I obviously won't look like Jillian Michaels for example b/c I do have some stretch marks and loose skin and saggy boobs but I know I can still get to what I am picturing and be proud of what I have done which is truly all that matter.

Remind me as I go through this December with party after party after party and family gathering after familiy gathering after family gathering that I have a BIGGER GOAL and it is not as if this is the last time I will ever eat those foods. They will still be around after the competition is over with. This Christmas season will truly be about spending time with family and the friends that I love and not about what food is going to be there. Just imagine, that won't even be a question I will be asking "what are we eating", since I will be bringing my own food, I will KNOW what I will be eating.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


WOW, it is already Thanksgiving. Just can't believe it is here. I always look forward to holidays b/c we have a few family get togethers and I have always enjoyed those. J's family is always fun and then I just adore my family and love spending time with my Aunt's, Uncle's and cousins. It will be odd not having my Granny like she has been for the past 35 years. I know she wants us to still gather and enjoy ourselves though. She doesn't want the world to stop even though she went to Heaven.

The funeral went well yesterday. It was really nice. The preacher was great and the music was perfect and just what Granny would want. My Mom did much better than I thought although I know deep down she is just SO SAD! You just wish the ones you love could live forever.

I am doing well just so sad for my Mom, Aunt and Uncle b/c I know their hearts are broken.

J is enjoying the day fishing with his Dad and Brother. I am getting off work early and I have a couple of errands to run then I will get my girls at my parents house. Maybe I can talk my Mom into putting up the Christmas tree. That can help your spirits some and I know the girls would enjoy that.

I am not a baker really but the girls love to help in the kitchen so I thought I might make a couple of things for tomorrow. We are taking a cheese ball and bacon wrapped jalapeno things with cream cheese in them. Appetizers basically b/c the rest of the food is covered.

I love cheesecake so I thought I might make one and then I love cinnamon stuff so I thought I might make some monkey bread. It is a hungry girl recipe so it is on the lighter side of calories so I thought that would give me the taste I am wanting without all of the calories. The girls will love to help me make these things.

I plan to eat several things off my plan tomorrow and I am really going to savor them and enjoy it but I do not plan to go totally overboard. Since I don't really eat much at one sitting on a regular basis if I don't watch my portions I will just be ILL. I don't want to feel bad so I am going to go with small portions of the things I really like. I can't wait to sink my teeth in my MIL's homemade german chocolate cake and her homemade apple dumplings. These things are to die for. YUM!! I can taste them already.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Sad news.

I have to share some sad news, my Grandmother passed away this past Friday. She was 95 and simply died of old age I would say. She lived a wonderful life with tons of family around her always. She never had any major illnesses or disease and had her mind up until the very end. She did get sick with some type of infection (they weren't sure what) about 4 weeks ago and she just couldn't come out of it. She had not eaten during that time. Maybe a bite or two here and there but pretty much no food and hardly any liquids. She just became weak. She took her last breath on Friday afternoon around 4:20 surrounded by her 3 living children (one son passed away 1 1/2 years ago of cancer).

It is sad of course but we are thankful for how long she was on this earth with us. I visited her on Thursday and I was able to talk to her and such so that was nice then Friday morning she became un-reponsive. The funeral is tomorrow morning. I dread this for my Mom. No matter how old you are or how old your parent is it is still so difficult to lose any loved one.

In spite of my Grandmother's passing we had a nice weekend. I love spending time with my Aunt, Uncle and cousins so we got to do a lot of that. J and I saw the movie the Blindside and we loved it. Lizzie had her first "friend" birthday party and that was fun. Chloe went with J on the bus to a basketball game and that was a treat for her. Then J took Chloe deer hunting Sunday morning and she enjoyed that. Our friends little boy turned 1 and we went to his party on Sunday also. Then we had family gatherings on Saturday and Sunday evening.

I am doing GREAT food wise. I mean REALLY GOOD!! You would not believe the homemade goodnes I have passed up the last 3 days. It is craziness what people are bringing to my Mom and Aunt's house. DESSERTS GALORE!! I have said NO to every single one of them. I am saving it all up for Thursday. I have to keep it in mind every time I pass over something sweet and delicious looking. I can do it. Only 3 more days until I am there. I have made it this far so I can keep going.

I plan to work out every morning this week. I am 1/1. Went to the gym this morning for some upper body ST. WOOT!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Thanksgiving and NO WEIGHT GAIN!

If you are like me and you want to enjoy the holidays with your family and enjoy some food but you do not want to put on any pounds here are some great tips by Corinne at Phit-N-Phat. She posted this in her blog today and I thought they were great things to do that you might not think of or if you have thought of them they are great reminders.

I have finally learned over the past few years that Thanksgiving to me is about spending time with my family. I enjoy the food that I really like such as dressing, cheesy potatoes, mashed potatoes, green beans and corn but I just get small portions of them and really savor the bites then I pick out my MOST favorite dessert of the ones to choose from and enjoy that too but I only choose one that is REALLY WORTH IT or I might choose 2-3 bites of a few of them if I just can't choose. So I do get to enjoy the food that comes along with the family but I don't eat myself sick like I have done MANY MANY times in the past. It's all about moderation folks and it is possible AND you still have fun. Probably more fun b/c you aren't moaning and groaning and just sitting b/c you ate too much that you can't move (oh, I have so been there).

Ok here are the tips:

I've been scouring newsletters, people, and my own history to give you ideas on what you can do to keep from gaining any TRUE fat the week of Thanksgiving. Remember, you are likely to bloat a little but come Monday you should have the same weight as last week.

Add 10 minutes a day to your exercise plan. By adding 10 min. of INTERVAL training to the end of every workout that week you will burn up 400-500 additional calories to help off set a small piece of pie and serving of dressing.

When you eat pie, take a true 1/8 of a slice and cut off the end piece where the crust is. There is a mother load of calories in that piece.

Skip the rolls. Most are store bought.

In fact, anything that isn't homemade and special skip it. Do you really want to gain weight off of Kroger brand white rolls?

NO GRAVY. Come on! Are you telling me the mashed potatoes and such aren't rich enough without the gravy on top?

Be the fun grown up. Rather than hanging in the kitchen to nibble or watching the TV, play with the kids. Even playing a game of checkers will avoid BLT'ing through the day. If you are really spunky go outside and play a game. You can throw the football and let them run around if you need to. You don't have to be in the best shape. Just get away from sitting and eating.

DO NOT take home leftovers. A lot of people will want to send home leftovers with you. They are smart. They don't want the temptation sitting around THEIR house.

The opposite holds true, too. Get the leftovers out. For those that want to take some home, let them. Otherwise, I wouldn't keep anything past Friday. Remember, food poisoning can make you just break out in a horrible case of fat.

Get up CRAZY early on Thanksgiving and Strength Train - not just cardio. You can also do some cardio afterward, but if you lift you are less likely to crave carbs all day. You can do it at home with DB's and if you don't have equipment, you can do squats, push ups, step ups on a chair, lunges, and other body weight exercises to failure.

Make it one meal. The rest of the day eat your regular diet. If you go in hungry trying to save calories you will eat double the calories you normally do. Plus, you will likely store it as fat if your body is in a desperate hunger state.

Take vegetables and fruit to the dinner. Have a lot of those and enjoy a little of the special stuff.
If you don't love it, just don't eat it.

Seconds ONLY after you have drank 16 oz of water when you finish the meal and you have waited 15 min. from finishing. You may still want more but you are likely to only dish out half of what you would have right after eating.

Bring your toothbrush and brush your teeth when you are done. Get the savory flavors out of your mouth.

Help clean the kitchen. You'll be moving or you can go back outside and play more with the kids.

If you do shopping on Friday, every hour, leave the mall, put your bags in the trunk, and then walk one lap around the outside of the mall. It will stretch your muscles, clear your mind, and burn off some calories.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I don't have a title

I can't think of a clever title or just a title at all. HA

Umm, let's see, I am doing well. I am feeling a tad better than I was yesterday. I think the neti-pot is working its magic. I hope it continues and I can avoid the Dr. and antibiotics.

I got up and did a short cardio workout on the TM and then some core work with planks and the stability ball. Then I went to the gym at lunch and did some upper body strength training. Shew, that felt good. I need to do that more often. That rev's me up for the rest of the day and give me some much needed energy for the afternoons.

Tonight we are headed to a basketball game to watch our friend coach. He is coaching a sr. high girls basketball team in a town nearby so we thought we would go watch. They have two little girls that my girls love playing with so that will be fun for them.

ok, that is all I have to share today. Have a great Tuesday, what is left of it anyway.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Gloomy Monday

It is rainy and dreary and cold here today. Just one of those days you really want to stay in bed ALL day long. I totally could have too since I am having some sinus congestion issues since Friday night. UGH. Having sinus issues just makes you feel run down. Could be worse though so I am doing my best to stay positive about it and hope it goes away in a few days. I broke out my neti-pot. I heart the neti pot!

This past weekend on Saturday my Mom, Dad and I took the girls to a drive through zoo. It is called the Gentry Drive Thru Safari. They loved it. We all loved it. So glad we finally went. What a great way to spend a few hours on the weekend. It was a beautiful day too.

So I have been struggling with my food on the weekends and keeping it consistent. The only way I will drop the fat that I want to is if I am consistent with the food. Well....I FINALLY did it. I had a solid weekend and didn't stray from my healthy food path and I am THRILLED!!! I needed that to show myself that I could do it. I didn't even miss the foods I usually eat. Not that I typically just totally fall off the wagon or anything b/c I don't but I do typically eat foods that are not in my weekly plan.

My goal as of now is the keep my food solid until Thanksgiving day. I want to earn that splurge that I plan on having. I CAN DO IT!! I WILL DO IT!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Football pictures

Here are pictures from J's Fall 2009 football season coaching the 8th grade football team.

Miss Chloe is such a poser.

Uncle Brett with his two favorite girls. Is that Woodland (the across town rival) blue he has on?

Chloe and another coaches daughter, Emma Kate, cheering on the track with the cheerleaders.

Nana (My Mom) and the girls at the last football game of the season.

Watching Daddy work and wondering what in the world those big things are on his ears.
He is in the booth for the 9th grade game communicating with the coaches on the field from a much better view.

At the last football game between the across town rivals, Woodland, they had an "alumni" nite. Well, I am an Alum of that school. So I proudly walked out on the field with my one other alum that was at the game for our graduation time period from there. Of course I was sporting my Ramay Red. I love both schools, I am very torn. Now, I didn't stand in the run through line for the 9th grade to come onto the field like all the other alums did. That might have been crossing the line.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Grand Lake fishing trip

I finally downloaded some pictures off my camera. We took a fishing trip to Grand Lake in Oklahoma with some of my family in late September. Here are a few pics.

Lizzie in the boat
Close up Lizzie

Chloe and Jeremy fishing

One of J's many many fish that he caught.

Going fast in the boat. We finally realized we could set the girls int his little area and the wind would blow on their back so that it doesn't take their breath away coming at them in the face. This worked MUCH better.

J driving FAST!

I really was on the trip, here is a self portrait going fast in the boat.

Friday, November 6, 2009

The Weekend!

Football is officially over for J. WOOT WOOT!! He loves it and I enjoy it while it lasts, the games at least, but we are both always glad when it comes to an end. It is just so time consuming. It has perfect timing though since it finishes in early November and then the holiday season begins and we all know how things get busy in November and December. Oh, I should probably report that his 8th grade team lost and the 9th grade team won. We will take 1 out of 2 and it is actually more important that the 9th grade wins so that is a plus.

Tomorrow the Razorbacks play South Carolina so we are going to that game and taking our girsl. I hope it goes well. I know they will get restless. The game is during Lizzie's nap so she will be tired. I am hoping for the best though and that they enjoy it.

I met again with my personal trainer this morning. It went GREAT!! I was a little worried b/c I did not sleep well last night. Just tossed and turned and woke up often. I just didn't get good rest. I thought I might be sluggish this morning but I wasn't. YEA!! I worked hard and I did not get light headed this time. I really like her and we work well together.

I am not planning any food splurges this weekend. I need to stay consistent with my healthy eating and I plan to do that.

Have a great weekend everyone. Enjoy the first weekend of November. WOW!

Thursday, November 5, 2009


Tonight is my husbands 8th grade football teams last game. We play the across town rival, Woodland (where I actually went to Jr. High). I am sending up my prayers and best wishes that we get a "W". It is always a fun way to end the year on a HIGH! If we don't win I hope we just play hard. J will be satisfied with that even if we can't pull out a victory.

The girls are so excited, they love the games and mostly love to wear their cheerleading outfits. It finally isn't raining on a Thursday night. We have missed several games this year b/c it has rained so much and I am not talking sprinkling. I am talking storms and down pours. NOT FUN!

So I meet with my PT in the morning at 5:30. Looking forward to it again. I didn't do exactly what I needed to this week to be completely ready but I am getting there. This is a process making yourself exercise consistently week after week and upping the intensity where it needs to be each time. OY! It is TOUGH but worth it after you are done every time. I never regret exercising.

This morning I woke up at 4:48 AM and looked at the clock thinking the alarm was going to go off in 22 minutes at 5:10. So I laid there and dozed off and then woke up again at 5:04 then openened my eyes again at 5:09 and said GET OUT OF BED, you are totally awake. Save the alarm from going off and I might not wake up J. So I did. Got in a great TM workout to start my day off on the right foot.

So wish the RAMAY INDIANS luck tonight...we need it!

Monday, November 2, 2009


I had my first personal trainer meeting on Friday morning at 5:30 AM. I was ready! I pushed hard. So hard taht 25 minutes into I had to sit down and then open the door b/c I got light headed. I did not think this would happen to me but I was breathing so hard and my heart was pumping so fast. You now those times when you think it is going to pop out of your chest. Well, after about 5 minutes I recovered and then got going again for 30 more minutes.

IT WAS TOUGH!!!! I did a circuit workout where I did 5 sets of exercises and then repeated it 3 times and then did another circuit with 4 sets of exercises and reapeated it 4 times.

The BIG NEWS is that I did 12 pushup without stopping. WHAT!! Yes, I thought I could do 3 but I did 10 the first time around and rested for 10 sec then did 5 more. The 2nd time around I did 12 in a row then the 3rd time I did 8 in a row. Now, my nose was not touching the ground by any means but my PT was calling them good so I was fine with however far I was going down. She did not expect me to go to the bottom for now. I will get there. I am SO PLEASED with what I did though. One of those times that you just underestimate your own strength.

So my homework is to do the circuits 2 more times this week before I go again on Friday.

Oh, I forgot the most important part. I WAS SO SORE on Saturday and Sunday and it is still lingering into this morning. Every single muscle in my upper leg was in total discomfort this weekend. It was bad. I was moving VERY VERY SLOW!! It has improved thank goodness so hopefully tomorrow I will be almost better so that I can just do it all over again.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Bikini Comp Saturday night in Ohio!

I have some blog friends (I guess I can call them friends) that are competing in a bikini competition in Ohio this weekend. They are STUNNING!!! Go check them out and leave a comment cheering them on.

Jessica is competing in her first competition and recently lost a significant (I think 5 pounds is significant) amount of fat and inches and she looks AWESOME! Here are her before and afters, kind of. There will be more afters of her at the actual competition which we will see next week I am sure.

Becca is competing in her 2nd (I do believe) bikini comp and has also competed in a figure comp. Here are her most recent photos that she posted.

They are true inspirations for this starting from scratch bikini competitor (me) so I love following along in their journey's. I am so glad I happened upon them. They seem beautiful inside in addition to what you see on the outside.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Personal Trainer...WOOT WOOT!

If you keep up with me then you might remember in early September I announced here on my blog that I was strongly considering doing a bikini/figure competition in June 2010. Go here to see that blog.

Well ever since then I have struggled a bit with my belief on if I could do it and if I really wanted to put in the time to do it.

My unbelievably supportive husband keeps encouraging me and tells me "you are doing it, I know you want to and if you don't you will always regret it." and he is right.

I had my 35th birthday on October 19th and a few days before that when I was a little down in the dumps and not knowing what to do he informed me that him and my Mom are going to pay for a personal trainer for me to work with. WHAT? I was in tears with excitement and dis-belief. This is just what I need. The food I can do but the exercise I struggle with. The consistent exercise at least. Meeting with someone weekly to push me and for the accountability would just be AWESOME!

J even found one on-line that he thought might be a perfect fit....and I met her today in person and she ABSOLUTELY IS the perfect fit. I knew when she walked in the door at the coffee shop and she reached out to hug me (I am a hugger so I loved that) that she and I would be a perfect match. To top it off she is 37 and the mother of two young kids almost exactly my kids age. GO FIGURE!!

So without hesitation and an hour of talking to her I am starting THIS FRIDAY, OCTOBER 30th at 5:30 AM at her in-home gym and I could not be more excited about it.

I will try to post on Friday after my session if I can lift my arms. HA Seriously, I have not worked out hard in several months. This will be an adjustment for me but a welcome one and I truly can't wait for it. I know I will feel GREAT in my mind at least when I leave there. I am raving about her and I haven't even worked out with her yet. I do love her personality though but I might dis-like her at 6:30 AM. HA!

Here she is in action on a youtube video. WOW!! Talk about impressive. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndujx-4z0HI
She competes in tri-fitness competitions. Google it if you want to know more b/c I don't know a lot about it.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Fresh start

As I said last week I have put myself in maintenance mode with small bites of this and that here and there and exercising sporadically. Doing this is fine if I wanted to stay where I am but this girl has GOT SOME GOALS so I gotta get on the ball if I want to reach them.

Yesterday I spent a couple of hours prepping some food, chicken, fish, steak, spinach and lettuce. I am eating this menu for the week:

B - 1/2 cup of oatmeal, 1/2 cup of blueberries, 5 egg whites
S - rice cake and peanut butter
L - 6 oz. chicken cooked in lawry's teriyaki, lettuce with spray ranch, 1 cup of milk w/ 1 scoop of protein powder
S - 4 oz. steak, 1 cup of steamed broccoli
D - 6 oz. fish and spinach salad w/ balsamic vinegar dressing

I finally bought myself a digital food scale and I was able to measure the exact portions of the meat. YEA!!! I can't believe I have waited so long to buy this. Oh well, better late than never.

I will get in 4 fasted cardio workouts this week also.

So far so good today with my food plan. I did not work out this morning which is fine. I am still on target for my exercise plan.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Moving along but getting no where

The title of todays post says it all. I am exercising some and eating relatively well but just standing still as far as inches and weight goes. This was not my intention a few weeks ago. Getting from good intentions to more action is what I need.

My food is always relatively good. I eat the right foods 85% of the time and when I don't eat healthy for me foods I don't just gorge myself and those times are few and far between. I have made some great choices too when really un healthy choices were right in front of me. Those things I am pleased with.

I have ramped up the exercise a bit which is a plus and I am doing it more frequent.

Even though I am doing those things well they are not good enough for the next step I want to get to. If I want to drop more fat and possibly do a figure/bikini comp I have to improve on both aspects. No two ways about it.

Not that I am in a bad place where I am b/c I am totally not. I feel good and I look fine. No one is pressuring me at all to lose more weight or stand on stage in a bikini. This was all my own thoughts. I just have to make a decision if I want to do the work that needs to be done in order to get to my next goals that I have thought of in my mind. I know I can do it if I want to. I think I am just not sure how bad I want to. Either way is fine for the support group around me. They love me at 200, 150 or 120 pounds. I just have to make sure I make the right decision for myself and that is the bottom line.

Decisions. I hate decisions sometimes. I am thankful that I get to make them but don't you wish sometimes someone else would just make them for you then you would just know what you wanted/should do.

Oh well, such is life. I will make my own decision then I will move on with the action that it takes to get to or stay at that place.

Monday, October 19, 2009


WOOT WOOT!! I have made it one more year on this wonderful earth and today, Monday, October 19th I have now turned 35!!!

It is very hard to comprehend actually. I still feel like I should be about 25 or in my late 20's maybe. NO WAY should I be 35. CRAZY!!!

Although I am not sure I look it I am feeling it. I continue to have issues with my back/neck and it is driving me crazy. I am just not sure how to remedy it for the long term. My knee on the other hand is much better since I have been avoiding running, squat and lunges. I am happy about that big time.

Overall, I am doing well. I have not been exercising like I need/want to be and my food has been average. It hasn't been nearly as good as it needs to be so that I can drop some fat. My mind just isn't in the game.

I am thrilled though to have made it one more year alive and well on this wonderful earth and I am anxious to see what the next year holds for me.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Nothing new.

Man, I am BORING!! I don't have anything big to report which is why my blog has been somewhat neglected. I am doing well. Just eating good and doing my AM workouts.

I have been logging my food for 2 weeks now and this is HUGE for me. YEA!!! I got up and worked out 4 mornings last week and I am 2/2 for this week so far.

I do need to kick up the intensity though. I know this so I MUST do this. I just need to have the attitude that if I am up out of my bed with my workout clothes in then I need to make the most of it. No dilly dallying.

The scale isn't budging at all, still around 148ish. It hasn't even peaked at 147. I think I might go for a while and not weigh. I don't want to get discouraged b/c I am eating right and exercising. I just need to trust the system and maybe weigh 1 time a week or maybe every 2 weeks or maybe even less frequently than that. I can tell in the mirror I am slightly smaller and that is what really matters. I know that with consistent eats and workouts that the scale will eventually move down.

Biggest Loser is on TV tonight. I always look forward do that.

Any Desperate Housewife watchers out there? I LOVE THAT SHOW!!! I think it is so entertaining. Biggest Loser and DH are the only two shows that I watch faithfully but I do love those two and I won't miss them. I DVR them and then after the girls are in bed I cruise through them and fast forward the commercials.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Staying afloat and feeling good

I haven't had much time to post to my blog recently which is why my posts haven't been very frequent. I am doing well though. I am 4/4 on the morning workouts and my food has been solid. I am drinking my gallon of water daily.

We have a Razorback football game this weekend and I have my food all planned out for it. I am treating Saturday and Sunday this weekend just like I would a Monday or Tuesday. I have to or every single weekend I will negate my results that I get through the week.

It is FOGGY here as I type this. It just rolled in. I have an amazing view from my office window and I can't see very far out of it b/c of the fog. We are expecting LOTS of rain to hit our area anytime. They are saying 2-7 inches depending on how the storm rolls in. Let's hope we are closer to the 2 although that is still a lot of rain. Could be worse though b/c it could be 7 like some are going to get.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

2/2 on the AM workouts

CONSISTENCY IS THE KEY!! We all know it but doing something about it is another story. In order to get to a goal such as competing in a figure/bikini comp you have to be CONSISTENT. Without it you willl never make it.

So with saying that I am 2/2 on the AM workouts this week. I am determined to make this a habit and a CONSISTENT habit at that. I must do it LONGER than 3-4 weeks at a time and then stop. That will not cut it.

With 2 AM workouts for the week I know I will get in the next 3. I can't fail now b/c I have started off too well. Plus, Monday and Tuesay are my hardest days of the weeks to get up so the rest of the week should be cake, right? Ha, cake, what an awful analogy. I wouldn't mind having some cake about now. Actually, I really want popcorn. A bag of popcorn form the Target concession stand thing. I must avoid Target which is pretty easy to do for me thankfully (it is on the other side of town from where I live). I have a 100 cal pack of popcorn at home so I might enjoy that tonight to keep me from caving and eating more than just popcorn.

Oh, hunting season started. I actually don't have my license yet and I don't want to attempt to kill anything until I am aboslutely legal. I did go with J the other day though and we saw 2 small bucks and that was entertaining. Then he actually shot at a BIG BUCK on Sunday afternoon BUT he can't find it. He trailed the blood for a ways but then it stopped. We went looking for it last night and as we were going down to the place where we were going to split up we jumped a deer and it looked really similar to the one he shot at and for it to be in that place that he knows his went to, it appears that might be his deer and he actually isn't dead. Hmmmm. He think she might have shot a little in front of where you should and he is just slightly wounded. He was moving pretty good when we saw him though so he isn't suffereing. I really hope J gets another shot at him at some point. This is a big buck to be around our area.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Our winning blog.

Go here to see the blog that Corinne did about J and I winning the couples challenge. It shows before and after pictures. I hope he doesn't mind that I link this here. Even though he has a ways to go I think making any progress of any type is forward progress and you should be proud of it. I am so proud of him and the eating changes that he has made that I want to show it off so go check out the difference that 20 pounds made on him. I already posted my before/afters so you have seen those.

We are having a GREAT week. I have been in and out b/c my parents (babysitters) are out of town so I have been spending some time with the girls. We have been having fun.

J's 8th grade team won their football game last night. YEA!!! We were so excited. They played really well.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

We WON!!!!

J and I won the Back to School couples challenge at Phit-N-Phat. We are SO EXCITED!!! We won $135 cash. Not sure what we are going to do with it but we know we will NOT be going out to eat. We have learned to NOT celebrate with food.

I am MIA some this week b/c my babysitters are out of town and I am taking off some to stay with my girls. We are having a good time and I am enjoying my time off.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Friday, September 25, 2009


Here are the pictures before and after of my 8 week challenge that I did at Phit-N-Phat. I didn't exercise as much as I wanted but I did start off great and had 3 weeks of 5 day a week exercise then it was scattered here and there through the rest of the 8 weeks. Although I got in at least 3 days a week which is obviously better than none. I lost 4.2 pounds of FAT!!! Went from 153.2 to 149. Considering I just lost 4.2 pounds which doesn't seem like much I am proud of my after pictures and pleased with my progress. I am motivated to keep going and working towards my goal of 140 by December 1st.

I was trying to make them bigger but I can't withough distorting them. I hope you can see the changes a little bit. It is most noticeable on the side view. I will post the individual pictures below so that they are bigger and then you can go here to see the "before" photos. http://excusesdontburncalories.blogspot.com/2009/08/mission-fat-drop-befores.html

Oh the even better news, Jeremy lost 20 pounds doing this challenge with me. I don't think he will let me post his pictures just yet but maybe he will down the road. It is AMAZING what 20 pounds did for him. He looks GREAT and feels GREAT!! I am SO PROUD OF HIM!! It isn't easy as we all know. He resisted a ton of good food over the course of 8 weeks but I am 99% certain he would say it was worth it.